Today was busy as usual. Settling all the stuff before my very first SISPEC Visit!

Gosh, feeling excited and at the same time nervous! Its my very first time dealing with Poly students! Hope I will just do fine.

Anw, today just gotten back to AYG that I wil not be joining them for Asian Youth Games as a volunteer leader this time round, due to my last minute work commitments. Due to work related reasons, I am due to stay till mid july, instead of mid jun. In a way, when my officer asked if i could stay till July, I find it hard to reject. Firstly, its because I really enjoy what i am doing, and secondly, I really feel that my officer had been really good to me, and if I can do something to help them out, i will really go all out to help them.

Thus, because of this, one of my bestie is not happy, because i backed out the last minute. But all I want to say is, I really cannot help when it comes to this. I believe if u are in my shoes, u will make the same choice as me too, and I really hope u can understand me, making this decision. For u, your job has ended by june. For me, it had not stopped. I am still gonna continue working.

So I hope you can understand. I know u are pissed or upset with me. But I only can say I apologise for that, and that I really take pride in what I am doing now, and I really have no time to volunteer. I hope that when i volunteer, i really put in my 101%. In this instance, if i really volunteer, i would be putting 50% for work, and 50% for volunteer work. In this case, I dun think it is fair for everyone. Volunteer must come from the heart. I do not want to do it, just because you are doing it, but rather its because I really want to gain something and to give in my all. If i cannot give in my all, I rather not do it. (Which is the decision I just made)

Feeling quite bad mood today after this instant, I am glad i still hv friends ard who understands me and came forward to cheer me up. I am happy to hv u guys ( U peps know hu u are, i shall not name lal here :) ) And bunny today msg me to "date" me out on fri! can't wait! haha. been quite some time since I last saw him.

and I chanced upon my friend's fb today. seeing how sweet the couple is right now, i can't help but feel lonely. But all of a sudden, i felt i am really not ready for this. For them, both party are ready to commit for a life time. But am I really ready to make this commitment? True luv is not easy, but I suddenly seem to realise, i dun think I am ready. Not at all. But sometimes I can't help but ask, what am I waiting for? Actually what I want, I am also not v sure myself. Perhaps I shld just take things one step at a time. Perhaps like what my friend told me, when it comes, you will know that this person is the one...

And today also had a great heart to heart talk with Bryan and Mdm Janny. talked about alot of stuff, and I am glad I am growing up as I mingle more with them. Learnt alot of life lessons and other stuff from them. Really appreciate I hv such great officers ard to work with.

Anw, guess its about time to get ready for my visit tml. tata peps, and thanks for spendint time to see me rattling out.. haha! I feel so much better now. TML WILL BE A BETTER DAY! YEAH!