I am so happy! RSAF Open House is upcoming!

Sat on Chinook, had fun during the media brief, i am really loving my job more and more!
Although stressful at times, but I must say every minute in AFIMC to me, is a experience that I enjoy! and i think i will miss the people I had worked with when i ORD :(

been so happy these few days, so excited over so many things! My year end long trip, air force open house, fren's outings, fren's birthdays! Gosh! Life is so happy !

We shld all look on the bright side. Unhappy things, why not just let bygones be bygones? :)
dun bear grudges *esp you, if u noe who i am refering to! haha*

Lead a successful life. This is what I aim for in life. But what is the definition of successful?

In life, we are often faced with ups and downs. Lately, although I am happy in most aspects of my life, but yesterday, i suddenly feel i am a failure. I could not even know what my sister is undergoing, I could not even advise her. And what's more, I do not know how to communicate or even let her listen to me. It's like so difficuilt to teach a young teenager these days.

I am behaving more and more like an adult. I worry the kind of friends she made, I worry she will mix with the wrong company. Cos of this, I start to always find out where she is, when she is back. Suddenly I realised, this is what my parents did to me when i was younger. I get worried when she is home too late, worried that she did not study enough.

Suddenly I realised, actually being a brother / gd parent is really not easy. You try to care for them, but they feel that you are very irritating and intruding their private life. That was how i felt when i was a teenager too.

Sometimes, being responsible is not good too. I am quite tired honestly. I do not know what to do.

I had this v wierd wish these few days, and that is to erase clean all my memory. Just feel like knocking down by a car, or just knock in the head by a robber. Forget everything.

Very crazy in deed. But I know this is not a solution. It is just escaping reality.

Till the day she learn....... I guess I just got to be the BAD person in her eyes. Some day she will understand my intentions....

sister, we all luv u ok? pls grow up.

To be honest, I am very very very upset and unhappy today.

I had not written my blog to complain in ages. but today, i am really feeling very upset.

Are humans born to be selfish? I realised no matter how much i am there for my friends, when i need them, need their advice, they may not be there for you. This lead me to wonder, is yourself the only one whom you can trust and depend on?

Today's conv with someone kinda gave me a wake up call. This is reality lor. Humans are all like that. I am selfish, you are selfish. Everyone is selfish. So I really start to wonder, where does being MR NICE bring you to?

But i still live up to my rationale of being nice to everyone I meet, because, life is short. no point bearing grudges. I really do not know how to face them anymore. Mayb what Choon Hong once said is right, best friends or gd frens shld nv work together. it willl just make the two person's relationship become worse.

I learnt this valuable lesson today.

Maybe sometimes, its better to just focus on work and nothing else.

I am disappointed I must say honestly.


*Say I am seeking attention or trying to gain sympathy. I dun fucking care. I just wanna voice out how I feel. If you dun like it, just FUCK OFF. I will just FUCK CARE.

to be honest, I do hv doubts abt china hosting the olympics initially. But after the opening ceremony today, I cannot deny but to praise china. I think they did a great job and did surprised me by their superb opening ceremony !

During the ceremony, really feel so proud being a chinese ! and when seeing singapore team coming in and hong kong team marching in, really feel so happy! I think China did a great job in the olympics opening ceremony!

Congrats China, you proved to everyone that YOU ARE READY! :D