Now is lunch time. Spending some time to just blog abit. Wow. These few weeks is really busy. 2 more visits next week. hopefully I can finish it off well. Felt happy today that my officer is really liking whatever I do, and putting alot of trust in me. This really made me feel that my hard work do pay off. Appreciate it deeply.

And yeah, I feel really lazy. Not been exercising for almost a week! Damn! haha.. I must work out soon. if not will become flabby and fat *bunni i am staring at u right now. FLABBY! haha*

can't wait for friday. a relaxing evening with bunni n justin.. =)

more meetings coming out though... =_= haha!

bye for now peps....

Today was busy as usual. Settling all the stuff before my very first SISPEC Visit!

Gosh, feeling excited and at the same time nervous! Its my very first time dealing with Poly students! Hope I will just do fine.

Anw, today just gotten back to AYG that I wil not be joining them for Asian Youth Games as a volunteer leader this time round, due to my last minute work commitments. Due to work related reasons, I am due to stay till mid july, instead of mid jun. In a way, when my officer asked if i could stay till July, I find it hard to reject. Firstly, its because I really enjoy what i am doing, and secondly, I really feel that my officer had been really good to me, and if I can do something to help them out, i will really go all out to help them.

Thus, because of this, one of my bestie is not happy, because i backed out the last minute. But all I want to say is, I really cannot help when it comes to this. I believe if u are in my shoes, u will make the same choice as me too, and I really hope u can understand me, making this decision. For u, your job has ended by june. For me, it had not stopped. I am still gonna continue working.

So I hope you can understand. I know u are pissed or upset with me. But I only can say I apologise for that, and that I really take pride in what I am doing now, and I really have no time to volunteer. I hope that when i volunteer, i really put in my 101%. In this instance, if i really volunteer, i would be putting 50% for work, and 50% for volunteer work. In this case, I dun think it is fair for everyone. Volunteer must come from the heart. I do not want to do it, just because you are doing it, but rather its because I really want to gain something and to give in my all. If i cannot give in my all, I rather not do it. (Which is the decision I just made)

Feeling quite bad mood today after this instant, I am glad i still hv friends ard who understands me and came forward to cheer me up. I am happy to hv u guys ( U peps know hu u are, i shall not name lal here :) ) And bunny today msg me to "date" me out on fri! can't wait! haha. been quite some time since I last saw him.

and I chanced upon my friend's fb today. seeing how sweet the couple is right now, i can't help but feel lonely. But all of a sudden, i felt i am really not ready for this. For them, both party are ready to commit for a life time. But am I really ready to make this commitment? True luv is not easy, but I suddenly seem to realise, i dun think I am ready. Not at all. But sometimes I can't help but ask, what am I waiting for? Actually what I want, I am also not v sure myself. Perhaps I shld just take things one step at a time. Perhaps like what my friend told me, when it comes, you will know that this person is the one...

And today also had a great heart to heart talk with Bryan and Mdm Janny. talked about alot of stuff, and I am glad I am growing up as I mingle more with them. Learnt alot of life lessons and other stuff from them. Really appreciate I hv such great officers ard to work with.

Anw, guess its about time to get ready for my visit tml. tata peps, and thanks for spendint time to see me rattling out.. haha! I feel so much better now. TML WILL BE A BETTER DAY! YEAH!

woww... sat went to ippt with choon hong. den after tad went to catch a movie tgt, alongside with Qihao... :) was a good evening.. IPPT gt major improvement lor. i had nv passed 4 stations in my life before.. n pull up I can finally do 7! ! ! ! that is like to me, a big improvement! hehe... only 2.4 i dunno why my timing deprove drastically... 14 minutes eh! ! ! >.< I could hv done alot better. I think i ran too little for the past 2 weeks (Given my tight job schedule :( )

But nonetheless, I am still happy cos I can see myself improving! : )

thanks lta loke, if u see this. without u, my pull up wun improve :P

Wow. had 2 consecutive days of busy visit and finally I am free enough to blog about my day! haha

well, my CJC kids are really cool! haha... Sarah, Jasmine, Brandon, etc.... Very fun batch! thanks for making my day kids! It's my pleasure to hv u all under my group!

anw, for NIE Teachers today, well it was a slightly challenging job, partially most of them are quite stubborn (cos they are adults) and can be quite diff to handle at times. But overall, I think I handled the situation alright. Of note, There are fun loving teachers too and I must say, its still meaningful to bring them ard today.

one thing i am very glad abt is that our guide team is improving in a while. I can see guides helping one another, and having alot of teamwork. I think this is something I am very happy about! and of cos, makes my day alot alot better.

I am glad I can remain enthu for 2 consecutive days of AM and PM visits, and I realise I am using the same jokes again and again! haha. must think of some new jokes to introduce myself, etc. hehe.

anw, quite happy today but just tired... :P

Anw. i think i wanna take a break now! tata peps and can't wait for weekends to come!


Larry's weekend plan

Fri Night - Tuition / Loke Supper
Sat Evening - IPPT with Choon Hong (OMG!)
Sat Night - ____ bdae surprise (Pending) <-- cannot tell hu, scarly that person reading, den no surprise! :P
Sunday - Free day currently

can't wait! hee...

Today was a tiring day. Done alot at work. And now going to on my way to tuition from work liao. but before tad, perhaps just wanna share abit abt my day to my blog (if anybody even reads haha)

Anw, work has been quite tiring. but again, is nonetheless meaningful because I like wad i am doing. I think passion is very important in pushing someone further. I am glad I had this passion in what I am doing. Similarly, I think i must apply this to my studies as well next time... really looking forward to studies.

and today I do not know why, i am quite moody (Perhaps, just like women hv their time of the month, Larry has his bad day too of the month. ) Really abit not very focused today, abit 心不在焉. Abit pessimistic and think alot today. Aiyo, dunno why leh, recently think alot. Perhaps its the weather, leading me to be abit 'sad'. =( *&*%$#@ the Rainy days*

Anw, I hope by tomorrow the Happy go lucky Larry will be back...

and today really quite tired.. and the thought of having to tuition at night, really abit sian. But then again, It is responsibility and passion pushing me too (I relli luv my kid! haha)

Well well, feel abit better after spurting out my tiredness...

and I really hv alot to share today, including my personal views on certain topics, some of the things tad happened in my personal life and work. However, there are certain things I cannot discuss here due to some taboo set by my company as well as certain topics which I cannot touch on as I recently discovered that someone is actually taking out certain part of my blog to dig out my past. Thus, feel abit disappointed and uncomfortable sharing too much here.

But nonetheless, I still hope to reach out to those who care abt me. But will avoid certain topics which I deem as sensitive and personal.

Anw, hope everyone hv a nice week ahead! Cheers!

Recently alot had happened, and that really made me question about reality.

Actually alot of times, things on the surface looks good, but however, may not necessary be the case. Some people appears to be a happy family. the kids being happy, calling daddy n mummy, but least did they know tat their daddy and mummy are actually already long separated in legal terms (a.k.a divorce).

Alot of times, I always believe that couples must stay sweet to one another, and must learn to love one another. and alot of times, I feel that we must stay truthful and faithful. But isit easier said than done? I do not know if i will make a good boyfriend or husband next time. This had actually been bothering me alot these few days. Because I suddenly feel that life is just so "real". Things are just not as perfect as what it may seem to be.

I suddenly start to question the meaning of forever. "I will luv u forever" This is just so cheesy. But does that person really mean that? I really believe in happily ever after. But I believe that this can only be achieved if 2 person believe in that. If only either party believe in it, it is not possible.

I realised that the belief "Happily ever after" fades as one relationship ends after another.

To all those players out there, I really hope that you do not spoil the dreams of all these souls, because they deserve the happiness they deserve, and no one should take that away from them.

For those who had been betrayed before, I feel that, you must not give up, and must stay strong. Because only yourself can save yourself from falling into this dark pit. Keep believing, and I believe that some day, the love of your life will sure be able to give u eternal happiness.

Today I was sitting down at rocky masters eating. Alone. YES, alone.

Those close to me should know I nv liked to eat alone. But I am now. However, as I am eating alone, i start to really feel the importance of friends. and while eating, I cannot help but keep thinking alot about friendship, love and life. Why do i always think so much? Larry larry, dun think so much k????

That's why I need friends. to distract me from thinking! haha.

Anw, need to get back to work now, lunch break's over. I am quite surprised I am starting to blog again, because, it had really been a v v v v long time since I last b logged. Perhaps its because now i meet my friends less often due to work? that's why i need to confide thru my blog.

in anw, i just wanna say one thing from the bottom of my heart
I MISS U ALL MY FRIENDS!

if only god can make a day become 30 hrs or sth? and working hours cut short by 2 hours? haha

wouldn't tad be nice? :P