Went out with Jan till like 1 am yesterday. had a long chat with her. well, guess we both are in the same situation... where we both just dun seem to be able to move on with life. But thank god, we've more or less moved on.
I'm trying my best to be the jolly larry, but somehow, i just can't. I no longer can smile and laugh. Even though i do, i realise it is a fake one. I'm not really happy.
Thank god i have a bunch of great frens behind me, and a supportive family, and great colleagues. Other den tad, i relli find no reason to smile anymore.
Tired maybe?
Another entry from my diary yesterday...
Loneliness made me feel tad stars have fallen from the sky
Romance made me feel like the whole sky is falling on me
How silly i believe that love can satisfy all my needs.
Destiny seem to have lost its way,
my dreams seem to have gone with the wind,
Please Larry, please understand dun hold on to things that wun happen
Time passes so slow, i can see myself getting less confident as days past,
it no longer matter if you are nice to me or not.
Let me ask this question, who din suffer from sacrifices out there b4?
Who exactly is happy with their life totally?
Even if there's no happiness, never mind.
Even if thigns dun last, never mind.
Even if one cannot find the love of their life,
who will scream for help? We only can smile forcefully.
Even if I'm to cry for you, never mind.
Eevn if I'm to sacrifice everything for love,
it no longer matter, because i'm already too tired for everything ...
When the season is over leaves will fall,
When the tiem is up, things will end,
So the same goes for r/s
Even though u may have many r/s,
does not necessarily mean that your happienss is that much.
Therefore. even if there's no happiness, never mind.
Even if thigns dun last, never mind.
Even if one cannot find the love of their life,
who will scream for help? We only can smile forcefully.
Even if I'm to cry for you, never mind.
But when i look at my needs one day, sad to say i'll still need some love.
Maybe I'm tired, but i'm already immune to getting ignored.