In office now. Everything i do nowadays no longer have tad positive attitude. smile less le. dunno why also.. mayb mood swings ba. somehow i feel tad the old larry is like gone and tad old depressing larry is coming back... This sucks.

This entry is from my diary last night... I wanna share...

After such a long time, i am still living in denial.
I've nv ask for much, i also dun dare expect much,
worrying you may not contact again.

In the end, it's still the same ending.
Saying we are not meant for each other.
I know that is only an excuse.
You don't wish to hurt me, but do you know?
you've hurt me badly.

You say you wan sth simple,
but apparently, it's not as simple as it seems.
Today i finally know,
all the things you said do not mean wad u actually feel inside.
Maybe I should have known, we won't even end up together from the start.
Maybe, maybe one day, you'll also get to feel what loneliness is.

Maybe.. maybe one day you'll also experience this feeling i'm feeling.


yup. this is how i felt last night exactly. Today, i nearly broke down again in the morning. Stress from work, from that shit, from everything. suddenly it just feels like so stressed.

maybe wad jannah said was right... Sometimes, the more you look for it, the more it will avoid you. This is called Love. I'll just let fate decide my destiny.

My Love, My Fate, you have fade away...