Let's talk abt my maths paper today! :D

I made some stupid mistakes here and there. But overall, i think the paper is still OK for me. :)
I know alot of people think the paper hard la.. actually i msut say at first i was taken by surprise too. I dunno how to respond at first and i was STUNNED! but thank god i did not let this overwhelm me and i still can do! this is good! :)

I am so glad. At least i know my practice did not come to waste. Now only scared chem tml! :S

Right, everything has officially ended for me. It is the end of a journey and a start of another. Was listening to Maia's Emotionally advised album this morning. That is my favourite album esp after i ended a relationship, because it gives me alot of guidance as in where i should head to next.

My next stop will be to meet up with all my frens after my exams. I am not going to fall in love again until after NS. I wanna put my all to my frens family and studies. Thanks to all out there who are concerned about me, i am fine. In fact this seperation is a pleasant one. But somehow i dunno why, i get a feeling that person is avoiding me after that break. Well, if it is that case, seriously, i wun mind, if that makes you happier. but i just hope things can be just like before we actually "acknowledged" each other. You are still my friend. This is somewhat what i wanna say to you.


The fact is that I betrayed my will to part i with you.
I tried scolding myself when i felt hatret towards you.
No one ever left an impact on me that great before.
But at least i thank this experience because it made me a stronger person.

What's so special about first love?
In reality, no one gives a damn.
Are we acting? Or is it i still choose to believe our love is not dead yet?

Everyone only have one first love, i think i live too much in this memory.
Humans are all selfish, they only know what is true to them after they lost them.
In the future, i thik i can nv find someone like u again.
Even if i do, it iwll take me a life time to find that person.

Everyone definitely will lose their loved ones at a time,
so this is not too late for me.
Love will one day blend out of my life one day.
I may have lose my senses, thinking happiness will nv last
But i will start to face reality...

In the end, who decides who is wrong or right?
In the end, at least i noe i loved once.
Being together, and breaking up, this will be my last time.

Right, enough of this for you. Now this is for myself....

Dear Larry,

Tonight, i will sleep peacefully, i can disregard sadness for this night.
Have the courage to face up the new life, no need to be jealous of the happienss around me.
Because, I once loved and that is already good enough. I must thank you dearly.
Even if this time i have no courage, being out of love won't make me die and cry.
Million of people out there, not everyone will sympathise you, so love yourself more.

Being pain now is natural, so you msut take things one step at a time.
Who else can love you more than you love yourself?
So you must tell yoruself, you must live life happy.
Cos that is the only way to make yourself happy.

kambate!!!!

From Larry

Actually i sort of recovered very fast. I realise break-ups make one person stronger and more stong willed. I decided, i must fulfil my dreams, i must continue to beleive. Because i know, there is someone out there who is REALLY meant for me. That person who will love me as much as i try to love... A person who will treasure me for who i am.

I hv recovered. Thanks to you, i am now a more wonderful person.

CheM papEr 3, here i come! :D