There are just so many things to be happy about in life. If we look around, there are actually alot of things we should feel blessed. For myself, I do not blame god for anything, because so far, I just feel that my life is very smooth sailing. I have a great NS experience, good friends, good family. Actually I just feel so blessed always.

But sometimes I look around, and I see some people not having a life they want, making bad friends, etc. I really feel that I am very lucky. I have people telling me, my life is too smooth sailing so far, and one day when I finally face a set back, i will not be able to take it.

But I just want to tell these people out there, I am very confident that I will be able to pull through it no matter what. Some people see my optimistic attitude as being fake, or being irritating. Because I just seem to able to see "light" in every bad situation that I face. Some people think that I am just being too naive. But i would like to tell these people, this is eventually the key thing we need in life, in order to succeed.

Some people ask questions like how to be successful? how to succeed in life?

Actually the answer is very simple. Be true to yourself, and be yourself. Sometimes, it is all in the mind. If you keep thinking negatively, and keep thinking that the whole world owes u a living, and you refuse to change, you will never be able blend in with the world. Because, like it or not, the world will continue to move on, even without you.

And in life, it is really the passion and meticulousness of the things you do, that make you outstanding. For myself, when it comes to work, I really expect things to be done well. Cos i love what I do, and I am proud of what I do.

Thus, I live by this simple rule. Love what you do. Even if you do not like something and you got to do it, convince yourself to like it. I must say I do have my weaknesses at times. At times, I do doubt myself and I do feel weak. But we got to overcome this. And this is the time where family and friends step into the picture. To give you this strength. I am blessed to have this strength all the time when I need it.

I appreciate life. and that is me.

Sometimes things may bring us down. But if we always look at a better side of life, there is definitely something that makes you happy. Think of it, and always remember. Life is beautiful.

It is 6 plus am. And It's like waking up from a dream. A sweet dream I would say. But perhaps, with the slap of reality, we got to come back to Earth.

No matter what, to be able to meet you, i am already contented :)

Larry is a happy boy, and will always be.

Anw for friends who cared, I just wanna say I am alright seriously, and I really did not felt too upset abt it :) no worries.

Tomorrow will always be a better day. I know it.

12 Jun 2009
7.25 am (In the train)

Today & in fact these few days, felt quite in a bad mood. Been affected by friendship problems, and just when I was being emo, I saw a child, who seemed to have somewhat illness (physically & mentally) sitting right opposite me alongside with her mum. Suddenly, I just felt a pinch of selfishness.

This world has so many people, so many other society problems that requires people's attention. These people are of worse situation than I do. But why people (like myself) always just think of relationship, friendship problems? and to them, its like the end of the world? Why am I drowning myself in self misery? There are alot of people out there who are much worst den me. So, I seriously hope that this would be my wake up call, and not to be so affected by tiny little problems.

Anw, there are alot of inner tots I would really wish to pen it down here, but I just realised it was rather personal. So that, I would write in my personal diary, but I just wanna say, sometimes, it is better to just be ignorant.

My career is happy, my family is happy, my studies is up and coming. My friends are always there for me, so I guess I cannot ask for more. Instead of complaining, why not think of how fortunate we are? and appreciate what we have?

Humans are selfish. We just keep wanting more. But however when we stop and look back one day, we will realise, we actually asked too much in every aspect.

may god bless me to pull through all these, and I sincerely thank you for bringing me to where I am today. I do not hate you, in fact I thank you for being so kind to me. I know some things cannot be forced and I always believe that if one thing is not meant for me, you definitely have your reason. I respect it and may you today bring me to further places and greater heights. I will make it through this. Just like how I did many years back ;)

I chanced upon my friend's facebook entry. His entry was talking about how NS had "robbed" away his chance for a scholarship. Below was an extract of his entry.

Thanks a lot. I did try again this year. Well I couldn't blame the batch this year for doing so well, could I? I didn't even survive to the interview. Never mind that I spent more than a month editing the essay I had submitted last year before I submitted it again this year. Maybe now you understand the title of this note.

Amry took a very important opportunity away from me. And now it's lost forever. I'm not placing any blame, just stating facts as I see them. I'm not saying I would have gotten the scholarship, which at minimum meant $25,000 without a bond i.e. free money. I'm saying I want to be given a fair chance for an interview, just like everyone else.

Well well. I do understand how he feel, being actually "robbed" of your scholarship interview chance by NS.

But well, why not lets look at the picture this way. without NS, the country will hv no defence. No defence, let's not even talk about scholarship, I think we wun even hv time for food and even education.

A good education system co-exist with a good military defence. Without good military defence, where on Earth do we hv the peace to even sit down quietly and study, and enjoy our peaceful environment?

True enough, he had sacrificed a chance for his scholarship. But I do believe that this sacrifice for peace in our country, is definitely a sacrifice worth while. In casee he may not see the big picture, he is actually sacrificing this for the sake of peace in the country, where million of people live in.

And I do believe that his efforts is recognised. And one day when you look back at the peace we are enjoying and comparing with other countries (whereby warfare is a daily thingy, and that you hardly can hv time to sit down and enjoy your day), perhaps we will start to appreciate what we are enjoying.

Peace does not come free. And its pretty disappointing to know that people seem to hv taken it for granted. I understand this entry will really piss those off who really hate NS. But all I actually want to say is, everyone needs to play a part for peace. And if you are not willing to put in any effort in doing so, I would sadly tell you, you hv no right to enjoy the peace and fruit we are enjoying in our country.

I know my pro Ns attitude sometimes (or rather most of the time) pisses people off. But all I want to say to all those out there who dislike NS is, at the end of the day, when you had travelled the world enough, although we always complain this and complain that, it is really the peace and stability of Singapore that really makes us feel like it is OUR HOME, OUR COUNTRY.

I can really say that, although in US there is alot of freedom, in Hong Kong there is alot of LIFE, There is no where out there that is as comfortable and as stable as Singapore. There is no city in the rest of the world, whereby I can feel so safe going home at 3 am midnight, without the worries of being hacked or beaten up. There is no whereelse in the world whereby I can walk the streets withour fears of being called "F**king Chinese".

There is alot of good points I have about Singapore. I love my country. And I am proud to be a Singaporean. I just hope that people can hv a better attitude towards NS.

True enough, NS maybe tough at times, and it may hv robbed your opportunities. But without NS, all I can say is, you may not even hv any luxury to be even doing things you enjoy doing. And you may not even hv the pleasure of sitting in front of a PC/phone reading my blog.

Alot of people ask me, how can I actually ENJOY NS? My answer is v simple. Its all in the mind. If you think NS is going to be shit, it will be shit. I must say, although i do hv gd officers I work for, sometimes, there are also times whereby NS was shit to me. But all I feel is that, this is really a preparation for the working world outside. I choose to see this as a learning process instead of doing sai kang.

Sometimes, if only we can hv a gd mindset, I believe NS can be enjoyable. Just like how mine was. Its really all in the mind. So, think positive, and your experience will be a positive one.