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ArchiTours '10 is back!

2010-10-02T01:31:00.002+08:00

"Mr Architect, why u design things this way huh?"

Ever asked tad question?

Ever thought why a building were designed in such a way? Have you ever wondered what went thru the architect's mind when designing this building?

Now its your chance to clear your doubts!

Following successful ArchiTours in 207, 2008 and 2009, ArchiTours '10 is back with full action!

Join us on ArchiTours '10, whereby we bring you to private designer houses, office buildings and much more in Singapore, with the architect explaining to you his/her design intent and process.

Visit us at www.archifest.sg for more details on bookings!

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Sammi Cheng Love Mi World Tour - Singapore

2010-04-03T18:03:00.002+08:00

Attended Sammi's concert yesterday! It was fantastic! Its good, and she is still as gd as ever!!

pictures of the concert can be found here http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=197977&id=652604273&saved

anw, the whole concert was really well crafted, and MC JIN was here! hanjin too! so i think the whole concert dun lose out to the Hong Kong concert... a pity the whole concert was conversed in mandarin and not cantonese!

but other than that, no complains! A great show by sammi yet again

go on, the diva of Hong Kong!

2010-03-14T12:08:00.002+08:00

Dear Larry,

I know you are super stressed up right now, so I decided to take a few moments just to write this letter to you. Life is never a easy path. and it is exactly these difficuilt time that makes life interesting and meaningful. I know you feel that you seem to have lost your way, you no longer know what you are doing, you feel like giving up. But hey, look, everyone is in the same boat as you!

I know you are mentally weak now, you are physically drained. But come'on! Don't give up! I am sure you can do it! Step back, pick yourself up, and always tell urself! you can do it!

COME ON! CONTINUE TO DO MORE! AND STAY STRONG N HAPPY!

Rgds,

Larry

2009-11-24T20:42:00.001+08:00

Phew, I had finished my first paper ever in NUS. PF 2102! wow! Time flies, and it is examination time. The paper was alright, with many tutorial questions coming out. I think many will do very well for this. Cos basically if you studied the tutorials, you will be able to do it.

I will be having my AR1221 exams tomorrow! Pretty nervous, and quite excited. Dunno what Dr Erwin will "surprise" us with! haha. But anyway, no matter what is the outcome, I know I had really tried my best, and I am OK with whatever the outcome.

For ideas, I really do not know what to study. Basically read through all the notes, had an opinion abt them. Tried to remember the directors, the concepts behind each film, and that's about it. I think like wad See Hong said, its more about your own opinions, and about you. How you see things. So I hope tomorrow's paper will be fine. . .

GEK paper is next week, and I am really looking forward to a short getaway in dec. Vietnam and Hong Kong, here I come! =D

2009-11-08T12:56:00.000+08:00

I miss my friends so much.

I realised I had yet have time to meet up some of my besties from sec sch. :( kinda sad school is always so hectic for me.

But just wanna say you guys are not fogotten and you all are always close to my heart!

so all the best for your upcoming exams n for those doing their A lvls, all the besT!

Cheers,
Larry

2009-10-25T14:45:00.003+08:00

Perhaps we were lovers our previous life. Perhaps.
Lovers who cannot fall in luv this life. Is that sad?
But always, is this person here
always there, when you tear

when will I know the answer?

Anw, been quite upset lately over sch work. But well, must not give up over a small tripping stone yea? I think alot of times I had been giving myself alot of unncessary stress. this is bad. Perhaps I need to focus and really FOCUS.

OK, need to go back to my homework. PF! GEK! DESIGN?! SO MANY THINGS! T_T

2009-09-20T12:28:00.002+08:00

amidst our busy life style, I think to be a really all rounded person, we must always find time to read things other than just our typical textbooks and notes, and really reflect our ourselves.

Being sensitive to the surroundings around us, is something I had learnt in architecture till date. and also, reading and reflecting on oneself is also something very important.

Recently chanced upon this article shared by my aki friend James. http://www.yesmagazine.org/issues/learn-as-you-go/higher-education

It is about values that an educated person should possess.

It is really inspirational. and again, amidst our busy life style, why not sit back and spend a few minutes reflecting on yourself?

2009-09-11T00:20:00.000+08:00

http://www.archifest.sg/index.php/humanity/competition_photo_gallery_vote/160/

Do hv a look at my photo i sent for a phototaking competition! thanks alot! :D

2009-08-12T17:02:00.002+08:00

Went to hv lunch with bunny n zw today after my first aki related lecture, AR1221, Ideas & Approaches in Design. I am really excited after the lecture, because the lecture is really out of the universe! It was pretty fun n really, NOTHING related to notes at all! it's all about YOURSLEF. You got to find your own style, and own structure. BE YOURSELF. This is basically what I had learn in today's lecture!

Irvin turned out to be a really interesting lecturer just like what I had percieved him to be. But "interesting" is too broad a word to use for now, on him. haha! its only the first lecture and I am sure I have alot more to see in him.

Finished lectures at 2 pm, and waiting for my next to start at 7pm. Yes, no kidding. 7 pm. Welcome to my life :)

But nonetheless, I did not waste my time here. Had been researching abit on my PFM project and also my year end essay. Suddenly, just felt a pinch of urgency. Its like time is not alot, and it seems like I still have alot more to do! and datelines are just everywhere!

I just realised my submission for my first project is in 3 weeks time. Not alot of time to be honest. But of cos, I will try to keep up the pace and work hard.

Afterall, this is architecture! and I am really willing to work hard. Larry, Aki, ALL THE WAy! WEE!

2009-08-11T15:31:00.002+08:00

Dear Larry,

I think it had been really quite some time you had last wrote to yourself. How are you? I am sure you are doing well. It's august! and school had started! Is everything going on well for you? I know you well enough, being a sociable person, you should have made lots of friends now!

It had been almost 2 years since you last attended an academic lecture. So how was your first day in lecture? I attended my first lecture and I really liked it. Its a beginning of a brand new journey, with brand new people! I am seriously excited. And I am sure you are too!

Tomorrow will be our first visual lecture! Its going to be by Irvin! I am really looking forward to see what kind of a lecturer is he, since I've heard so many interesting thing about him! I am sure you are equally excited about that too yea?

Anw, I wish you all the best for your upcoming academic year! and lets work hard together and enjoy our uni life! Love you always from the bottom of my heart!

Cheers,
Larry

2009-08-05T15:56:00.002+08:00

In school now. Initially going for tuition, but decided to stay behind to help the Rag Float, cos Rag is near! so going tuition on Friday instead.

Anw, went to lunch with bunny today in biz canteen. Den went to visit him in his hall. Went to his hall, initially wanted to visit ZW too, but just recalled he is on MC! But nvm, nxt time perhaps.

Am very excited about school and I had already recieved the very first set of lecture notes, strucutral systems! Had been reading up quite a bit, and hope I can understand the first lecture! haha.

And Rag day is coming soon! so hope SDE can win! Cheers!

update again, got to make a move now. Tata..

Larry signing off from NUS SDE Com Lab

2009-08-02T10:47:00.001+08:00

没有爱情对白那套杜鲁福
可以与谁观看
没有爱情带路坐上横滨线
问我共谁流浪
没有爱情喝下那罐热咖啡
可以替谁解渴
怀内每句话谁肯听听我讲
踏破铁鞋你在哪里为我等
给我半滴恋爱
踏破铁鞋你在哪里未知道
就似未曾存在
踏破铁鞋我在这里为你等
仿似竞技比赛
寻觅太过耐连爱亦变伤害
除非我没有动人成份
何必怕没有交出初吻
看著时间过但唯有我
在寻遍每位路人
明知道未到动人时份
才等到头上灯泡转暗
寄望还会有位路人
清楚我亦蛮吸引
继续迷信有情人多麼近
最後迎接有情人的一吻
习惯了独个在四处乱碰钉
感觉爱情很远
习惯了独个在暗角祈祷也
未见我能如愿
习惯了独个为某个人暗恋
只有拼命打算
寻觅到厌倦谁兑现我心愿
除非我没有动人成份
何必怕没有交出初吻
看著时间过但唯有我
在寻遍每位路人
明知道未到动人时份
才等到头上灯泡转暗
寄望还会有位路人
清楚我亦蛮吸引
继续迷信有情人多麼近
除非只夺去爱的资格
仍自信有日谁会为我表白
除非我没有动人成份
何必怕没有交出初吻
看著时间过但唯有我
在寻遍每位路人
明知道未到动人时份
才等到头上灯泡转暗
寄望还会有位路人
清楚我亦蛮吸引
继续迷信有情人多麼近
最后迎接有情人的一吻

2009-07-28T17:30:00.002+08:00

Time flies and school is starting soon and I mean, real soon ok? It's like 11 Aug? My first lecture will start already! hahaa... It's going to be a brand new journey, with brand new people and brand new adventures! I am really looking forward to it.

SDE Camp was fun. My Atlas Clan is friendly and we are just so wow! haha. Aki Camp was fun too, with all the WRIGHT people! haha. "We are right n you are wrong" haha! Well, so far, everything seems to be falling in place.

Ended my work just like last week, and I really learnt alot there. I hope I can hv the chance to go back to help whenever I have the time.

Anw, I will work hard for my new life! And strive for the best!

Bryan, I will rmb what you told me. Thanks for everything!

Many Cheers and three cheers for my upcoming uni life! YAY!~

2009-07-14T21:33:00.001+08:00

wow. Work is pretty tiring for me nowadays. Not that I am busy, perhaps its just tad I hv nth much to do now since I am leaving soon. so its kinda boring.. =X

But nonetheless, will do my utmost to teach my understudy everything and leave in peace :)

And just been wondering lately, abt time machine. Isn't it cool if we can travel back in time to any time we want? If there is really such thing, I would wanna do so many things. I will wanna go back to my sec sch days and make sure i do all my test again n i am sure to do well! haha.. den change my fate entirely! :D hahaaa! Bt well, if i do tad, perhaps i wun meet the wonderful pep i had met today! ! !

Bt well, if I really can travel back in time, i would really hope to bring you back in time. and know u before he does, and be your happy ending. And wouldn't let him have the chance to go near you. But well, just fantasies...

anw, so what wil you do if you can travel in time? Do think abt it! It may come true some day! haha

2009-07-13T12:46:00.002+08:00

I am back to work today.

That's why I guess I had the time to blog during lunch! Anw, the past 2 orientation camps was superb. Made new friends, met new people and did lotsa crazy things.

Uni Life really seem vibrant so far, and I really look forward to it. While I am excited over it, at the same time, I cannot deny, I'm also abit nervous abt doing well in uni. But I guess I just got to take things one step at a time yea? Like wad my father told me, do not stress myself unnecessarily.

Today also has tuition, it is gonna be a long day! and got to practice some piano cos teaching one of my friend piano. *Cannot malu sia* haha!

And recently seem to had sorted out alot of my tots. I think I need focus. I think for now, studies shld really be my focus and I should really work hard. and be like LTA Loke, doing so well in uni, at the same time having lots of fun!

OK, i think lets stop here! Time to go listen to some music before lunch break is over! tata!

2009-07-07T09:01:00.002+08:00

Janice Vidal's new song, Pretty! :) I find the lyrics pretty meaningful. If you guys hv time do check out the song! ! Her new album totally rocked

I tried to fly away
I tried to find a place
Followed a shooting star
We fired up the car
And traveled to afar
Everyday

We shared a "Siamese dream"
Beside your frontdoor stairs
The songs we used to love
No longer good enough
To keep you from burning up

Please take me back in time with you
To a time when you were true
Visit all seven wonders
There won't be another
To keep me satisfied
If I can fall back into you
There is nothing I can't do
If I'm under the weather
We talk, I feel better
At least I knew I had
Someone who cared
Somebody baby

I tried to stay away
I tried to give you space
I couldn't help myself
I only wanted to help
You pushed my arms away
Then one day

You walked another way
A place I couldn't stay
My compass fell apart
I don't know where to start
To Keep this from tearing up

Please take me back in time with you
To a time when you were true
Visit all seven wonders
There won't be another
To keep me satisfied
If I can fall back into you
There is nothing I can't do
If I'm under the weather
We talk, I feel better
At least I knew I had
Someone who cared
Somebody baby

Anyway, going to Architecture camp in a few hours... kinda excited. Hope wun get another H1N1 Qurantine! Haha. Anw, see u guys ard :)

2009-07-05T18:02:00.002+08:00

One Morning I woke up
I felt as if I suddenly
just couldn't see
Little boy inside of me

So I pretend to smile again
it's not that easy
everytime I see myself I just can't breathe

On a rainy day you walked along my side
and brushed the raindrops from eyes and then
you asked me if I'd be alright
never thought I'd ever feel the sunlight shining through my wintery sky
Hold me tight, baby hold me tight, won't you dim the lights

La La La La La La La La La La La La La La
I want to sing my love songs to you
Let me hold you
La La La La La La La La La La La La La La
I can't stop thinking about you
Please baby please tell me that you love me

I don't wanna cry no more but am I brave enough?
To face the pain and fear u left behind for me
I've been deeply hurt before with all the wounds u gave me
It's killing me
only if you see
Loving you the sound of burning cigarettes
Falling ashes on my lonely bed
I told you I can't live without you
let me love you
I won't regret

for all the times we've been through

Please baby please tell me that you love me

La La La La La La La La La La La La La La
I want to sing my love songs to you
On my lonely night
La La La La La La La La La La La La La La
I can't stop thinking about you
Please baby please tell me that you love me

Never thought that it would hurt me so deep

2009-06-29T20:30:00.000+08:00

Such a cute korean love song! Enjoy people! ! ! I love that guy's geeky image! hehee

2009-06-25T09:33:00.001+08:00

Wow. Monday was a start of a brand new journey. SDE Orientation 2009! ! ! !

So it kicked off with a wonderful Day one, with Atlas, my OG ranking 2nd! haha. My OG Mates and OGLs are fun la I must say, and we really had fun! Day 2 was wet games, and it was as fun!

It was only until 3rd day, when they discovered the H1N1 case, which was from our OG, we gt quarantined for hours! from 12 till around 6 plus 7? That was lik so OMG! and kinda scary.

But it was an experience though. Thank goodness the affected person is not from our OG, but still, the risk is there.

Must take care of myself manz... and facebook has more details! So, do check out my Atlas Group page! Cheers everybody!

Atlas sah... Atlas sah.. Atlas SAH SAH SAH!!~~

2009-06-19T10:09:00.004+08:00

2009-06-18T13:53:00.002+08:00

There are just so many things to be happy about in life. If we look around, there are actually alot of things we should feel blessed. For myself, I do not blame god for anything, because so far, I just feel that my life is very smooth sailing. I have a great NS experience, good friends, good family. Actually I just feel so blessed always.

But sometimes I look around, and I see some people not having a life they want, making bad friends, etc. I really feel that I am very lucky. I have people telling me, my life is too smooth sailing so far, and one day when I finally face a set back, i will not be able to take it.

But I just want to tell these people out there, I am very confident that I will be able to pull through it no matter what. Some people see my optimistic attitude as being fake, or being irritating. Because I just seem to able to see "light" in every bad situation that I face. Some people think that I am just being too naive. But i would like to tell these people, this is eventually the key thing we need in life, in order to succeed.

Some people ask questions like how to be successful? how to succeed in life?

Actually the answer is very simple. Be true to yourself, and be yourself. Sometimes, it is all in the mind. If you keep thinking negatively, and keep thinking that the whole world owes u a living, and you refuse to change, you will never be able blend in with the world. Because, like it or not, the world will continue to move on, even without you.

And in life, it is really the passion and meticulousness of the things you do, that make you outstanding. For myself, when it comes to work, I really expect things to be done well. Cos i love what I do, and I am proud of what I do.

Thus, I live by this simple rule. Love what you do. Even if you do not like something and you got to do it, convince yourself to like it. I must say I do have my weaknesses at times. At times, I do doubt myself and I do feel weak. But we got to overcome this. And this is the time where family and friends step into the picture. To give you this strength. I am blessed to have this strength all the time when I need it.

I appreciate life. and that is me.

Sometimes things may bring us down. But if we always look at a better side of life, there is definitely something that makes you happy. Think of it, and always remember. Life is beautiful.

Rainbows

2009-06-17T16:38:00.000+08:00

Flipping through the channels

Can’t seem to understand

Why so many lovers

Losing their dreams in love?

I remember a time, there would be rainbows

Now we’re living a time, in darker skies

There was heavy rainfall down here in punggol field

Children boarding school bus, in that heavy storm.

I remember days there would be happiness

Let it be today, show the way

It doesn’t matter what colour, or whereabouts you are

This love that we have is for everyone

So don’t you give up

We’ll pass the test of time

Cos I can make it through without you

Snowy is the weather down in Chicago

Guess this world is changing, even faster than me and you

I remember spring there would be flowers

Bring me back again, oh Lord, won’t you please?

It doesn’t matter what colour, or whereabouts you are

This world that we have is for everyone

So don’t you give up

We’ll pass the test of time

Cos I can make it through without you

It doesn’t matter what colour, how rich you are

This magic called love is for everyone

So don’t you give up

We’ll pass the test of time

Cos I can make it through without you

Flipping through the photos

I then saw myself

Through my devastation, I still smiles with all that I can

Cos I knows it’s time, we are part of something

Something beautiful, awaits me somewhere.

2009-06-16T12:55:00.000+08:00

6.30 am

16 June 2009

Dawn had came again

With a brand new morning

I rose up from my bed

With doubts in my head

Can’t understand

Why do some people said

That love is not genuine

With all lies and shags

Trying hard to make it right

Deep down in your eyes

Do you see a strong desire

To make your nightmares feel alright

Tears in my hands, in my mind, in my eyes

Why won’t you dare take a chance?

I tried so hard to realize

That this heart can’t be revived

Please make it though, think it through, pull it trough

Cos life can be beautiful

It’s OK to feel afraid

But I just want you to know that I’m with you

Trying hard to calm your fears

Whispering in your ears

Can you feel this faith inside you?

Trying hard to make you alright?

Tears in my hand, in my mind, in my eyes

Why won’t you dare take a chance?

I tried so hard to realize

That this heart can’t be revived

Please make it though, think it through, pull it trough

Cos life can be beautiful

It’s normal to feel afraid

But I just want you to know that I’m with you

With all my blessings I’ll bless you

Remember, I love you. I, really do.

2009-06-16T10:11:00.000+08:00

Flipping through the channels

Can’t seem to understand

Why so many lovers

Losing their dreams in love?

I remember a time, there would be rainbows

Now we’re living a time, in darker skies

There was heavy rainfall down here in punggol field

Children boarding school bus, in that heavy storm.

I remember days there would be happiness

Let it be today, show the way

It doesn’t matter what colour, or whereabouts you are

This world that we have is for everyone

So don’t you give up

We’ll pass the test of time

Cos I can make it through without you

Snowy is the weather down in Chicago

Guess this world is changing, even faster than me and you

I remember spring there would be flowers

Bring me back again, oh Lord, won’t you please?

It doesn’t matter what colour, or whereabouts you are

This world that we have is for everyone

So don’t you give up

We’ll pass the test of time

Cos I can make it through without you

It doesn’t matter what colour, how rich you are

This magic called love is for everyone

So don’t you give up

We’ll pass the test of time

Cos I can make it through without you

Flipping through the photos

I then saw myself

Through my devastation, I still smiles with all that I can

Cos I knows it’s time, we are part of something

Something beautiful, awaits me somewhere.

2009-06-16T06:28:00.002+08:00

It is 6 plus am. And It's like waking up from a dream. A sweet dream I would say. But perhaps, with the slap of reality, we got to come back to Earth.

No matter what, to be able to meet you, i am already contented :)

Larry is a happy boy, and will always be.

Anw for friends who cared, I just wanna say I am alright seriously, and I really did not felt too upset abt it :) no worries.

Tomorrow will always be a better day. I know it.

2009-06-14T19:20:00.001+08:00

Today went to eat with jw, zx and zw. . . Quite fun, and i enjoyed myself as usual :)

Jade commented tad my blog is too depressed. Well, i think i got to blog about more positive stuff den! hehe... Happy boy i must be, Larry :)

You Belong With Me (Guy Version)

2009-06-12T14:01:00.002+08:00

haha, changed the lyrics of Taylor Swift's song to fit a guy's perception. He may be a sports captain, but looks is not everything. Hope you all like it :D

You Belong With Me (Guy Version)

Lyrics : Larry Yeung

You're on the phone with your boyfriend, he's upset
He's going off about something that you said
He doesnt get your humour like I do

I'm in my room, its a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music he doesnt like
And he'll never know your story like I do

But he wears singlets, I wear t-shirts
He's sports captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming bout the day when you'll wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me
You belong with me

Walking the streets with you in my worn out jeans
I cant help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on the park bench thinking to myself
Hey isn't this easy?

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I havent seen it in awhile, since he brought you down
You say you're fine I know you better than that
Hey, What you doing with a boy like that?

He wears track shoes, I wear sneakers
He's sports captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming bout the day when you'll wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standing by, lazing in your bedroom
All this time how could you not know that?
You belong with me
You belong with me

Oh I remember we talking on the phone in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're about to cry
I know your favorite songs and you tell me about your dreams
Think I know where you belong. I think I know it's with me.

Can't you see that I'm the one who understand you?
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standing by, lazing in your bedroom
All this time how could you not know that
You belong with me
You belong with me

Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me
You belong with me

2009-06-12T08:11:00.003+08:00

12 Jun 2009
7.25 am (In the train)

Today & in fact these few days, felt quite in a bad mood. Been affected by friendship problems, and just when I was being emo, I saw a child, who seemed to have somewhat illness (physically & mentally) sitting right opposite me alongside with her mum. Suddenly, I just felt a pinch of selfishness.

This world has so many people, so many other society problems that requires people's attention. These people are of worse situation than I do. But why people (like myself) always just think of relationship, friendship problems? and to them, its like the end of the world? Why am I drowning myself in self misery? There are alot of people out there who are much worst den me. So, I seriously hope that this would be my wake up call, and not to be so affected by tiny little problems.

Anw, there are alot of inner tots I would really wish to pen it down here, but I just realised it was rather personal. So that, I would write in my personal diary, but I just wanna say, sometimes, it is better to just be ignorant.

My career is happy, my family is happy, my studies is up and coming. My friends are always there for me, so I guess I cannot ask for more. Instead of complaining, why not think of how fortunate we are? and appreciate what we have?

Humans are selfish. We just keep wanting more. But however when we stop and look back one day, we will realise, we actually asked too much in every aspect.

may god bless me to pull through all these, and I sincerely thank you for bringing me to where I am today. I do not hate you, in fact I thank you for being so kind to me. I know some things cannot be forced and I always believe that if one thing is not meant for me, you definitely have your reason. I respect it and may you today bring me to further places and greater heights. I will make it through this. Just like how I did many years back ;)

2009-06-10T14:15:00.002+08:00

Wrote a song one of the nights months ago. I have a few more on hand, but will share it another day. Today, would share "ONLY HOPE". It's a ballad about a crush on someone, who only treats u as a friend. I am still trying to come out with a suitable tune. Hope to get one out soon. hehe! enjoy tye lyrics for now first! :D

Only Hope
Music by _________
Lyrics by Larry Yeung

Each of those encouraging words that you spoke
All of those cute little notes we often wrote
Never fail to keep me from feeling low
All of those so previous you know?

But I can't help, but feel a little embarrassed
Well I guess, you'' laugh if you know how I felt
Keep this affection for you deep in here
Never want to let you know how I feel

When it all began? When it's gonna end?
It's like without your voice I could never stand.
Are you just a friend? Or somebody else?

So without a plan, I took on the chance
Just by hearing your sweet voice
My heart finds a will to live
And just with you by my side,
my life is always full of light
My Hope is only, and only this one.
For me to keep on loving you, like this way that I do.

Yes I know you recently known someone special
I can tell from that smile you've been carrying around
You had seem to gain back your faith again
But my blue sky just started to rain

It is just so pain. I can't cure the pain
it's like this pain just refuses to fade away
You are just a friend, but why am I sad?

Just looking at you, joy would fill the air
Just by being by your side, I found reasons I can fly
I will keep sealing the truth
So please don't think I'm forcing you
My hope is only one, and only this one.
For me to keep on loving you, like this way that I do

When it all began? When it's gonna end?
It's like without your voice I can never stand.
Are you just a friend? Or somebody else?

Even without a plan, I'll take the chance
Just by hearing your sweet voice,
my heart finds a will to live
And just with you by my side,
my life is always full of light
My hope is only one, and just only this one

Just looking at you, joy would fill the air
Just by being by your side, I found reasons I can fly
I will keep sealing the truth
So please don't think I'm forcing you
My hope is only one, and only this one.
For me to keep on loving you, like this way that I do

2009-06-08T12:49:00.002+08:00

ok its lunch break again. Saw maj cindy in rocky masters and enjoying my cup of iced chocolate now! hehe. OK. so, what should i talk abt today? I wanna share abit on the topic Dreams.

What are dreams? Today I cannot help but dwell on this topic.

Why do people believe? Some people no longer believe in dreams, because they feel that dreams just simply don't come true. But for myself, I am a person full of dreams. I dream of love, I dream of friendship, I dream of happiness. I believe in dreams.

Without dreams, I feel that life will be so meaningless. Without dreams, We lose our purpose in life. I am sad for those people who no longer believe in dreams. They are like a living zombie, without a purpose in life.

I hope that people out there can continue to believe in dreams. Because Dreams do come true, if we keep our faith in them and not giving up.

Sometimes, dreams perhaps its abit far-fetched, abit unrealistic. But I just feel that as long as we continue to believe in them and work towards the goal, things will be possible.

I believe in happy endings. But how do I go about making it come true. I will belive in love, i will love my future partner madly! :D Perhaps it is easier said than done. But with a dream, nothing is impossible.

So people, continue to dream, and make yoru dream come true!

many Cheers!

2009-06-08T09:56:00.000+08:00

There was heavy rainfall down in Mississippi
People lost their families to that endless storm
I remember days,there would be freedom
Let it be today,show the way

It doesn't matter what colour or whereabouts you are
this world that we have, is for everyone
so don't you give up
we'll pass the test of time, coz I can't make it through
without you

It doesn't matter what colour or how rich you are
this world that we have, is for everyone
so don't let it down
we'll pass the test of time, cos I can't make it through
without you

2009-06-02T18:01:00.002+08:00

I chanced upon my friend's facebook entry. His entry was talking about how NS had "robbed" away his chance for a scholarship. Below was an extract of his entry.

Thanks a lot. I did try again this year. Well I couldn't blame the batch this year for doing so well, could I? I didn't even survive to the interview. Never mind that I spent more than a month editing the essay I had submitted last year before I submitted it again this year. Maybe now you understand the title of this note.

Amry took a very important opportunity away from me. And now it's lost forever. I'm not placing any blame, just stating facts as I see them. I'm not saying I would have gotten the scholarship, which at minimum meant $25,000 without a bond i.e. free money. I'm saying I want to be given a fair chance for an interview, just like everyone else.

Well well. I do understand how he feel, being actually "robbed" of your scholarship interview chance by NS.

But well, why not lets look at the picture this way. without NS, the country will hv no defence. No defence, let's not even talk about scholarship, I think we wun even hv time for food and even education.

A good education system co-exist with a good military defence. Without good military defence, where on Earth do we hv the peace to even sit down quietly and study, and enjoy our peaceful environment?

True enough, he had sacrificed a chance for his scholarship. But I do believe that this sacrifice for peace in our country, is definitely a sacrifice worth while. In casee he may not see the big picture, he is actually sacrificing this for the sake of peace in the country, where million of people live in.

And I do believe that his efforts is recognised. And one day when you look back at the peace we are enjoying and comparing with other countries (whereby warfare is a daily thingy, and that you hardly can hv time to sit down and enjoy your day), perhaps we will start to appreciate what we are enjoying.

Peace does not come free. And its pretty disappointing to know that people seem to hv taken it for granted. I understand this entry will really piss those off who really hate NS. But all I actually want to say is, everyone needs to play a part for peace. And if you are not willing to put in any effort in doing so, I would sadly tell you, you hv no right to enjoy the peace and fruit we are enjoying in our country.

I know my pro Ns attitude sometimes (or rather most of the time) pisses people off. But all I want to say to all those out there who dislike NS is, at the end of the day, when you had travelled the world enough, although we always complain this and complain that, it is really the peace and stability of Singapore that really makes us feel like it is OUR HOME, OUR COUNTRY.

I can really say that, although in US there is alot of freedom, in Hong Kong there is alot of LIFE, There is no where out there that is as comfortable and as stable as Singapore. There is no city in the rest of the world, whereby I can feel so safe going home at 3 am midnight, without the worries of being hacked or beaten up. There is no whereelse in the world whereby I can walk the streets withour fears of being called "F**king Chinese".

There is alot of good points I have about Singapore. I love my country. And I am proud to be a Singaporean. I just hope that people can hv a better attitude towards NS.

True enough, NS maybe tough at times, and it may hv robbed your opportunities. But without NS, all I can say is, you may not even hv any luxury to be even doing things you enjoy doing. And you may not even hv the pleasure of sitting in front of a PC/phone reading my blog.

Alot of people ask me, how can I actually ENJOY NS? My answer is v simple. Its all in the mind. If you think NS is going to be shit, it will be shit. I must say, although i do hv gd officers I work for, sometimes, there are also times whereby NS was shit to me. But all I feel is that, this is really a preparation for the working world outside. I choose to see this as a learning process instead of doing sai kang.

Sometimes, if only we can hv a gd mindset, I believe NS can be enjoyable. Just like how mine was. Its really all in the mind. So, think positive, and your experience will be a positive one.

2009-06-01T17:00:00.002+08:00

Today was a tiring day! But nonetheless a fruitful day.

Alright so what did Larry Chan did over the weekends. Sat was busy with work (@ Home). But nonetheless spent some time with Greg n other NS friends. Sunday had bdae celebration with Wing & Family. Kbox-ed with them till ard 1am ++! haha. was a fruitful session, given that I sang really well (and same for them). It was as if it was our own concert! haha. Great to always hv them ard.

And today is MAJ Janny's bdae! Felt quite bad that my present for her will only be delivered in 2 weeks time! haha. But nonetheless, sent her a bdae msg and had a mini cake for her today (compliments of Lenz) haha! It was a happy day today.

and this week is going to be hectic! But I will not give up, because I really love my job! ! =D

Cheerios everyone and hope u all hv a gd week ahead too!

2009-05-30T19:06:00.002+08:00

Today, went to play badminton with my NS Frens. It had been great being able to meet up with Greg after so long! Been so busy. Didn't join them for dinner cos I need to finish up some work, which I am about to begin. But before I begin. Got just some things I would wish to share.

Today as I was on my way back. I saw a group of ants. as well as a BIG spider. I was actually thinking that the ants will DIE, cos the spider will eat them. But to my surprise, the ants actually went around the spider, and together, they managed to attack the spider, and soon, the spider stopped moving, and was dead. Suddenly, this strike something in my mind. Alot of times in life, we often feel that we are inferior to the rest, and always thinking that we will lose to stronger opponents. But actually, as long as we work as a team, a group of weak people can create a miracle. As long as we do not stop fighting, we will win the war in the end. So, TEAMWORK, is very important. we need to work together to achieve something. Even nature had proven this point!

Anw, I just saw Joel's entry he made on May. 20th, 2009 at 5:39 AM. I feel quite sad that I only noticed it NOW! So if u are reading this, i just wanna let u noe. Well, tomorrow is always a better day. So do not feel too upset ya? Hope u are feeling better now.

and lastly, i read this somewhere, and I would like to share with everyone this.

Friends n lovers are like food. Some gd n keep us going.
Some are junk and make us sick.
Who never eat the wrong food? Similarly who never make wrong frens?
FOcus on those who are true to you. THose who betray or make use of us,
they are not what we look for. It's ok we are stupid noce. Move on and stay positive.

This statement was v impactful to me. What you all think?

Anw, peps hv a gd weekend!

2009-05-28T12:02:00.002+08:00

Now is lunch time. Spending some time to just blog abit. Wow. These few weeks is really busy. 2 more visits next week. hopefully I can finish it off well. Felt happy today that my officer is really liking whatever I do, and putting alot of trust in me. This really made me feel that my hard work do pay off. Appreciate it deeply.

And yeah, I feel really lazy. Not been exercising for almost a week! Damn! haha.. I must work out soon. if not will become flabby and fat *bunni i am staring at u right now. FLABBY! haha*

can't wait for friday. a relaxing evening with bunni n justin.. =)

more meetings coming out though... =_= haha!

bye for now peps....

2009-05-27T20:43:00.002+08:00

Just finished my maiden SISPEC Visit. It was really cool! ! Finally all SISPEC Visit had ended with a perfect full stop. I had fun with TJC Kids.. Fun bunch of kids. Really pretty interesting. Well, I am really starting to love my job alot! :) Its a gd thing i think. Haha.

But well, this week still has alot of things to settle. Has more things to settle before next week's visits! haha. But anw, I think we can do it! and i cannot wait for the next visit!

Anw, been a pretty good day today. Other than the fact that there was a jam on the way back to TJC, and that I am fungry, and the traffic light keeps turning red. :P

Hope tml will b a better day! yeah! :D

2009-05-25T22:16:00.003+08:00

Today was busy as usual. Settling all the stuff before my very first SISPEC Visit!

Gosh, feeling excited and at the same time nervous! Its my very first time dealing with Poly students! Hope I will just do fine.

Anw, today just gotten back to AYG that I wil not be joining them for Asian Youth Games as a volunteer leader this time round, due to my last minute work commitments. Due to work related reasons, I am due to stay till mid july, instead of mid jun. In a way, when my officer asked if i could stay till July, I find it hard to reject. Firstly, its because I really enjoy what i am doing, and secondly, I really feel that my officer had been really good to me, and if I can do something to help them out, i will really go all out to help them.

Thus, because of this, one of my bestie is not happy, because i backed out the last minute. But all I want to say is, I really cannot help when it comes to this. I believe if u are in my shoes, u will make the same choice as me too, and I really hope u can understand me, making this decision. For u, your job has ended by june. For me, it had not stopped. I am still gonna continue working.

So I hope you can understand. I know u are pissed or upset with me. But I only can say I apologise for that, and that I really take pride in what I am doing now, and I really have no time to volunteer. I hope that when i volunteer, i really put in my 101%. In this instance, if i really volunteer, i would be putting 50% for work, and 50% for volunteer work. In this case, I dun think it is fair for everyone. Volunteer must come from the heart. I do not want to do it, just because you are doing it, but rather its because I really want to gain something and to give in my all. If i cannot give in my all, I rather not do it. (Which is the decision I just made)

Feeling quite bad mood today after this instant, I am glad i still hv friends ard who understands me and came forward to cheer me up. I am happy to hv u guys ( U peps know hu u are, i shall not name lal here :) ) And bunny today msg me to "date" me out on fri! can't wait! haha. been quite some time since I last saw him.

and I chanced upon my friend's fb today. seeing how sweet the couple is right now, i can't help but feel lonely. But all of a sudden, i felt i am really not ready for this. For them, both party are ready to commit for a life time. But am I really ready to make this commitment? True luv is not easy, but I suddenly seem to realise, i dun think I am ready. Not at all. But sometimes I can't help but ask, what am I waiting for? Actually what I want, I am also not v sure myself. Perhaps I shld just take things one step at a time. Perhaps like what my friend told me, when it comes, you will know that this person is the one...

And today also had a great heart to heart talk with Bryan and Mdm Janny. talked about alot of stuff, and I am glad I am growing up as I mingle more with them. Learnt alot of life lessons and other stuff from them. Really appreciate I hv such great officers ard to work with.

Anw, guess its about time to get ready for my visit tml. tata peps, and thanks for spendint time to see me rattling out.. haha! I feel so much better now. TML WILL BE A BETTER DAY! YEAH!

2009-05-24T10:35:00.003+08:00

woww... sat went to ippt with choon hong. den after tad went to catch a movie tgt, alongside with Qihao... :) was a good evening.. IPPT gt major improvement lor. i had nv passed 4 stations in my life before.. n pull up I can finally do 7! ! ! ! that is like to me, a big improvement! hehe... only 2.4 i dunno why my timing deprove drastically... 14 minutes eh! ! ! >.< I could hv done alot better. I think i ran too little for the past 2 weeks (Given my tight job schedule :( )

But nonetheless, I am still happy cos I can see myself improving! : )

thanks lta loke, if u see this. without u, my pull up wun improve :P

2009-05-22T20:33:00.002+08:00

Today I logged on my PC, I chanced upon your facebook
It seems like ages since we last talked
Are u doing fine?

In those photos, i see your happy smile. Seems like you are doing OK.
Did it ever crossed your mind if I am doing fine?

Please don't get me wrong.
Not that I had not gotten over you. You are long gone from my head.
But I still care for you as a friend
Do u still treasure this friendship?

Sometimes, I really don't know.
Sometimes, I really wish not to know anything about you.
This feeling I am feeling, is mixed.

perhaps the best way to make me feel better
is not to care.

Perhaps taking this piece of me away from me is the best for me.

I've moved on. and I will be happy.
Because I must.

2009-05-21T17:39:00.003+08:00

Wow. had 2 consecutive days of busy visit and finally I am free enough to blog about my day! haha

well, my CJC kids are really cool! haha... Sarah, Jasmine, Brandon, etc.... Very fun batch! thanks for making my day kids! It's my pleasure to hv u all under my group!

anw, for NIE Teachers today, well it was a slightly challenging job, partially most of them are quite stubborn (cos they are adults) and can be quite diff to handle at times. But overall, I think I handled the situation alright. Of note, There are fun loving teachers too and I must say, its still meaningful to bring them ard today.

one thing i am very glad abt is that our guide team is improving in a while. I can see guides helping one another, and having alot of teamwork. I think this is something I am very happy about! and of cos, makes my day alot alot better.

I am glad I can remain enthu for 2 consecutive days of AM and PM visits, and I realise I am using the same jokes again and again! haha. must think of some new jokes to introduce myself, etc. hehe.

anw, quite happy today but just tired... :P

Anw. i think i wanna take a break now! tata peps and can't wait for weekends to come!

Larry's weekend plan

Fri Night - Tuition / Loke Supper
Sat Evening - IPPT with Choon Hong (OMG!)
Sat Night - ____ bdae surprise (Pending) <-- cannot tell hu, scarly that person reading, den no surprise! :P
Sunday - Free day currently

can't wait! hee...

2009-05-19T12:57:00.001+08:00

Today is a busy day for me. But had a great lunch with qihao & Yazid! And i just bought Shauna's present. hope she likes it! Hahaa.. Anw, nv had a great lunch for qutie some time. and most importantly, I am going to CJC for visit tml, and NIE the day after! its my very first time doing this visit at IDHQ! I am quite excited and at the same time, of cos, nervous abt it! haha.

But well, i hope everything will just turn out oK. i must hv confidence in myself, if not, how am I going to lead? Anw, need to get back for work now, cos lunch time is up! But anyway, i hope that tml will be a gd day for myself, as well as for my fellow team mates! ;)

All the way !

2009-05-18T17:46:00.002+08:00

Today was a tiring day. Done alot at work. And now going to on my way to tuition from work liao. but before tad, perhaps just wanna share abit abt my day to my blog (if anybody even reads haha)

Anw, work has been quite tiring. but again, is nonetheless meaningful because I like wad i am doing. I think passion is very important in pushing someone further. I am glad I had this passion in what I am doing. Similarly, I think i must apply this to my studies as well next time... really looking forward to studies.

and today I do not know why, i am quite moody (Perhaps, just like women hv their time of the month, Larry has his bad day too of the month. ) Really abit not very focused today, abit 心不在焉. Abit pessimistic and think alot today. Aiyo, dunno why leh, recently think alot. Perhaps its the weather, leading me to be abit 'sad'. =( *&*%$#@ the Rainy days*

Anw, I hope by tomorrow the Happy go lucky Larry will be back...

and today really quite tired.. and the thought of having to tuition at night, really abit sian. But then again, It is responsibility and passion pushing me too (I relli luv my kid! haha)

Well well, feel abit better after spurting out my tiredness...

and I really hv alot to share today, including my personal views on certain topics, some of the things tad happened in my personal life and work. However, there are certain things I cannot discuss here due to some taboo set by my company as well as certain topics which I cannot touch on as I recently discovered that someone is actually taking out certain part of my blog to dig out my past. Thus, feel abit disappointed and uncomfortable sharing too much here.

But nonetheless, I still hope to reach out to those who care abt me. But will avoid certain topics which I deem as sensitive and personal.

Anw, hope everyone hv a nice week ahead! Cheers!

2009-05-17T14:05:00.002+08:00

" I may never get to see you as often as I like. I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night. But deep in my heart I truly know, you're the one that I love and can't never let go"

Found this quote rather cool! Share with u all here :) It's a gd weekend.

2009-05-16T09:10:00.002+08:00

Phew. Yesterday was my very first poly lecturer visit in my stay in ST(Electronics)! That is so wonderful! Although I must say there are less engaging time with the lecturers compared to students, but it is really quite insightful to see for myself how lecturers are really like out of school. Actually they are just like normal adults. haha. and i was still quite afraid of them initially, cos i tot they would ask me chim questions which I can't ans haha!

But at the end of the day, seeing them happily leaving the place, thanking me, all the tiredness is worth it! :) and most importantly, i am back to my very own air force place! The feeling is like going home. and seeing new officers sprouting, and seeing back old friends there, it is really a very homely feeling. Air force really is something close to me, and yea, definitely something I will NEVER forget :) (Tads why I tot of signing on, but well, let's consider caerefully. cos the bond is not short! haha. Perhaps DXO or something?)

Anw, mdm janny also told me a v insightful story on the way back. I just feel that she is a really good officer, and never failed to inspire me again and again. Like i always told her, to hv been able to get officers like her along side with the rest of my officers there, it is really my honour and luck.

I really hope they can go on to influence more young lives! Anw, really had a meaningful day yesterday! and Hope my upcoming weekend will be a nice one! Cheers! :D

2009-05-14T13:20:00.002+08:00

Recently alot had happened, and that really made me question about reality.

Actually alot of times, things on the surface looks good, but however, may not necessary be the case. Some people appears to be a happy family. the kids being happy, calling daddy n mummy, but least did they know tat their daddy and mummy are actually already long separated in legal terms (a.k.a divorce).

Alot of times, I always believe that couples must stay sweet to one another, and must learn to love one another. and alot of times, I feel that we must stay truthful and faithful. But isit easier said than done? I do not know if i will make a good boyfriend or husband next time. This had actually been bothering me alot these few days. Because I suddenly feel that life is just so "real". Things are just not as perfect as what it may seem to be.

I suddenly start to question the meaning of forever. "I will luv u forever" This is just so cheesy. But does that person really mean that? I really believe in happily ever after. But I believe that this can only be achieved if 2 person believe in that. If only either party believe in it, it is not possible.

I realised that the belief "Happily ever after" fades as one relationship ends after another.

To all those players out there, I really hope that you do not spoil the dreams of all these souls, because they deserve the happiness they deserve, and no one should take that away from them.

For those who had been betrayed before, I feel that, you must not give up, and must stay strong. Because only yourself can save yourself from falling into this dark pit. Keep believing, and I believe that some day, the love of your life will sure be able to give u eternal happiness.

Today I was sitting down at rocky masters eating. Alone. YES, alone.

Those close to me should know I nv liked to eat alone. But I am now. However, as I am eating alone, i start to really feel the importance of friends. and while eating, I cannot help but keep thinking alot about friendship, love and life. Why do i always think so much? Larry larry, dun think so much k????

That's why I need friends. to distract me from thinking! haha.

Anw, need to get back to work now, lunch break's over. I am quite surprised I am starting to blog again, because, it had really been a v v v v long time since I last b logged. Perhaps its because now i meet my friends less often due to work? that's why i need to confide thru my blog.

in anw, i just wanna say one thing from the bottom of my heart
I MISS U ALL MY FRIENDS!

if only god can make a day become 30 hrs or sth? and working hours cut short by 2 hours? haha

wouldn't tad be nice? :P

2009-05-12T15:12:00.000+08:00

Dearest friends, today I wanna touch on the topic of love and friendship.

I sincerely believe that all love develop from friendship. We know this person, we become friends, den we become close friends, and then perhaps, something beautiful will happen after that. That something beautiful is LOVE.

Falling in love is a beautiful thing. But why many do not believe in love any more? A lot of people do not treasure people around them. And they only realized their importance when they are gone. Actually in life, to be honest, how many opportunities to love often pop by? Not many.

I had hurt someone before, and similarly I had been hurt before. I had been a jerk; I had also been crazily in love. In any case, I just hope that people can learn to treasure one another. Happy endings seem difficult to achieve, but I believe it is possible.

I want to have a happy ending with the one I love. Perhaps this person had not appeared in my life, or perhaps this person had already appeared but yet to be discovered. But all I wanna say is that I will continue searching. And I know one day, when I finally fall in luv with the right one, I will fall madly in luv, and I know, we will hv a happy ending..

I still believe in love. Because after all, love makes the world go round. Right? Just to everyone out there, please do not stop believing, because only when you believe, can your dream come true.

2009-05-01T13:41:00.003+08:00

That warmth we shared, the times we spent. I really enjoyed myself. every second, every minute. I see you, it gives me faith that tomorrow will be a better day. Thank You Friend. :)

2009-04-28T13:33:00.002+08:00

Found this post recently from my diary. Doesn't harm to share does it? :)

The dream of true love, the simpleness of love
Those simple pure and innocence of first love
I miss those presences and who I used to be
Those simple dreams that all teenagers believe
Can one love fulfil all these dreams?
This thinking just felt so naive,
Know that it'll hurt, but choose to believe

Some day perhaps you'll find
True love all comes to an end
perhaps someday you will know true romance

Perhaps I was naiave
Thinking love is all plain sweet
hoping someday love will make tad someone believe

Soon you'll learn how to wake up from this
And know that first love's just part of a sweet dream...

all i can say is Larry had grown up... goodbye to the baby larry :)

2009-04-25T15:05:00.001+08:00

yesterday night was the sweetest night ever... =)
I hope things stopped that very minute. Do U Know?

2009-04-24T15:01:00.002+08:00

today while walking back home, i saw sth n relli wish to share

my place currently is building some kind of building, and the green field tad i used to see everyday is now gone. Everywhere is just red sand and dust and machines. This land used to be so beautiful n lively, but now, as usual, human activities had once again destroyed this beautiful natural scene.

Suddenly I jus can't help but wonder. when will we learn to love the environment? And just as I thought this piece of rubbish land can nolonger sustain any form of natural life form, i saw this very very bright little flower in the middle of the whole construction site.

In life, I guess its the same too. Just when we all think that the worst situation cannot possibly produce anything good, sometimes, miracles do happen. Just like when i tot the land can never sustain any life, there the flower was, living strongly and beautifully.

So, just wanna say, as long as we dun give up hope, nth is impssible. We must always stay positive =) AFTERALL, isn't this wad life is all about? :)

What is life?

2009-04-23T14:37:00.000+08:00

Actually what do I really want in life? Sometimes I cannot help but ask myself. Is it a person to spend the rest of my life with? Is it a career that gives me all the money I can possibly have? Sometimes we claim that life seems so complicated. But is it actually us who are complicating things. Do you know that?

Life is actually very simple. We just be happy, and do good to others. I think to me, that is what life is all about. I just hope to be happy, I just wanna be the happy boy that is positive no matter what happens.

But sometimes, events just happen and we cannot help to be sad. But most importantly, I feel that we must learn how to accept things we can’t change, and focus on things that we can change. In this way, we can learn to be a happier person. This is in other words, discovering a new side of yourself and learning how to move on in life.

Life is not about work. Life is not about love. Life is actually about self-discovery as well as a journey of happiness.

Work will end some day. Love may end some day. But our journey of self discovery never ends. Perhaps, this is what life is really all about.

2009-04-05T12:54:00.002+08:00

I had a great Saturday with that someone. I had not been so happy for so so long. This kind of feeling is very wierd. I am so happy I had know you. Maybe you do not know, but in my heart, i just want you to be happy and always be happy.

2009-03-09T22:00:00.000+08:00

CPT Alan Ooi. RIP.

It is sad to know a young adult jsut go like that. It is really a reflection of society. Why everyone just go one by one like that? Every thing seem v depressing these days. I hope people can keep their spirits high no matter how tough things get. Cos Nothing is the end, we can always pull it through some how.

No matter what, always believe in hope and faith. Cos that will pull you through any thing...

God Bless all man kind

2009-02-27T00:17:00.003+08:00

I chanced upon this article on the net

Datuk S Subramaniam, the President of the Nesa Multipurpose Cooperative Society and the former MIC vice president said that academic performance should be the main criterion for awarding of scholarships and not other subjective qualities like interviews and participation in extra curricular activities.

This really led me to think abt my recent submission for a scholarship. Honestly, I did not do exceptionally well for A Lvls (Having only a B B D grade). Thus, I initially had doubts to even submit the application form. However, on second thought, I was thinking, is scholarship all about results? If i do not try, I would not know rite? So I decided to pick up my courage and filled up the form and submtited it together with my supporting docs.

I start to wonder. Is success defined by just academic results alone? Of course there are the few talented ones who can do well academically as well as excel in their CCA, however how many people out there are such perfectionist? And, does getting straight A's definitely mean a successor in the working world?

As a student, I've seen students getting straight A's, but when it comes to presenting in front of a crowd, they do not know how to express their views. I've also seen straight A's students having problems starting a conversations and communicating. In this instance, will they succeed in their career next time? But perhaps, humans are mostly judgmental, this is something we cannot change.

Some may argue that, what is the point of being able to communicate when you could not even think? But I would like to ask, does not doing well academically necessary means a person could not think? Getting great grades depending on memorization, is that thinking?

Einstein quit school when he was 15 cos his teacher told him that his very presence destroyed the other students' respect for the teacher. But was he successful at the end of the day?

I think this serve as a good example to tell those people who are not academically smart, or those who think differently one thing : do not let people who does not believe in you get you down. Because at the end of the day, we are all someone useful, and we are here on this Earth for a reason.

If you fail to get a scholarship today, it is not that you are useless or not good enough, if you are not getting into the course you want in uni, it is not that you are not good enough. It is because we live in a society where competition is strong and people are judgmental. DO NOT let this bring you down or give up because success is not judged by results alone. You can too become successful as long as you stay strong in what you believe in.

I look forward to the day where the next "Albert Einstein" will rise . . .

2009-02-25T23:24:00.001+08:00

I've done a personality test @ http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx.
I think the results are pretty accurate. What you guys think?

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

2009-02-23T22:32:00.001+08:00

I suddenly miss travelling. I miss the blue skies and green fields of UK. I miss the great wall of China. I miss victoria Habour of Hong Kong. I miss the food in Macau. I really wish to fly away this instant and fly away from all the woes . . .

Actually what is going on in my mind? Am I just finding things to b upset abt? Well, we must always look on the bright side ya? Well, I think i really want a holiday. Am I running away from the problems? Or seeking a solution?

I don't know. Larry really don't know.

2009-02-14T18:44:00.002+08:00

Happy Valentines Days to all lovey dovey couples out there. Also wanna take this opportunity to thank all my friends and family out there who always make me feel so loved. Happy v day to you guys.

Today went to watch Underworld with a friend after tuition with Shauna. Find the movie alright, didn't really understand alot of stuff cos didn't watch the earlier ones. Anw, in orchard rd see all the couples, cannot help but emo. But well, there is still a long way for me yea? V day is not everything.

Anw, emo time is over, guess tml will be a better day.

2009-02-12T20:10:00.001+08:00

Wow, today was a hectic day manz.

woke up, need to go renounce my british citizenship (which i had no idea i actually had it for 21 years) in order to hv my citizenship qualified! so make my way down to the british high commissioner, got it done, den go to Lavender to take my oath.

Then later on, met zuwei for early dinner. had swensons. Gave me a wallet. sweet of him :p

anw, been seeing so many valentine days presents everywhere. Kinda getting sick of it. Why are everyone so lovey dovey? It is really quite saddening to see myself having nothing but just my ipod, and my Nintentdo ds with me. guess i will just hv to hv my valentines day spent with my Work, Ipod and Nintendo Ds. everyone has their date... Haiz.. and mine? still dunno...

Somewhere out there?

Well, dun wanna let this problem bother me. There is still alot more to life other than Love. Shouldn't waste my Youth! Need to earn more money and make more frens! ENJOY LIFE! ALL HAIL TO LIFE ! and wadever to Love... *BOOOO* wahhahaa....

happy 21st

2009-02-09T16:19:00.003+08:00

I just turned 21 ! The feeling is mixed.

Had a really great time with my friends and of course with someone special. Cannot ask for more.
I am really happy. Will it be a preview for something even better ahead? I hope I will be able to hv a gd 2009 ahead! :) Smile!

2008-12-20T13:58:00.002+08:00

had a heart to heart talk with someone last night online.
Hope you will get well soon from your past....
I will always be by your side... hope you will be happy once again...

2008-10-27T20:16:00.002+08:00

When There Was Me And You
It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there

Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen?
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
It's coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along

But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
And once upon a song

Now I know you're not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Because I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind

Cause I liked the view

I thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

2008-10-21T21:48:00.001+08:00

情人时节能握手便足够
嘴边的温暖没需要拥有
无聊时间能一起听演奏
跟你就永远止于良朋挚友
宁愿你永不知道
我多想与你好
能做你知己
不必与你拥抱
无谓爱意一宣布
就此把你吓倒
能陪我已很好
欲望未大到高攀不到
维持朋友无需要便拥有
亲昵的感觉已享受得够
灵魂和你同一秒在挥手
恋爱在有无之间仍然引诱
道别了你的好
情人与友好都得不到

2008-10-20T20:40:00.002+08:00

You'll be surprised... I can actually still rmb...
1 more day to your birthday.... Happy Birthday to you...

This feeling is mixed.

I do not know if you even see this, but I wanna tell you, i am living well. Anw, may u be blessed with every happiness n be happy.

Eagle Eye + Bunny Belated bdae celebration

2008-10-12T19:35:00.001+08:00

Wow, today had a great day.

Went to celebrate bunny's belated bdae with a mini cake... followed by game of table tennis with nat, Bunny and tit... It was really fun!

Followed by a movie "Eagle Eye". Really do not get why the critics gave it such a low rating! The movie totally rocked big time! from the plot to those actions! I totally give it at least a 3 star !

Those who had not watched it shld go catch it! I think it is really cool!

alright, i guess tads abt it today? Work tomorrow... gosh.. so tiring!
But well. hang on there! Tomorrow will be a better day i suppose? Smile!

MAJ Janny's farewell

2008-09-26T00:47:00.002+08:00

Today was on half day off. Afterwhich went to Samuel's house for BBQ (the 3 Js farewell) - Ms Jouline, MAJ Janny & Joel's farewell....

I think the whole gathering was a great success.. seniors and juniors see one another and we all have fun. its like everyone from the different GENERATION of AFIMC mingled together. I really truly enjoyed myself today. From the crapping with the normal AFIMC Gang, to the suaning of seniors, to the kena bullied by seniors, to the mingling with superiors, to the BBQ.. to the catch up... etc. I really truly enjoyed every single moment of it!

Sir Loke will be uploading the pix soon! hahaa ! can't wait.
guess its time to rest now. Tomorrow OFF also :P hahaa!

AFIMC Rocks & Thanks Mdm Janny, Ms Jouline & Joel for all the fun times in office! Will miss u all!

Love Story

2008-09-19T22:27:00.003+08:00

Taylor Swift's Latest Single "Love Story".
It's going to be in her upcoming albulm "Fearless" released on 11 Nov 08.
This song is about a love that you've got to hide because for whatever reason it wouldn't go over well. She had spun it in the direction of 'Romeo and Juliet'; our parents are fighting. She related to it more as a love that one cannot really elaborate on — a love that maybe society wouldn't accept [or] maybe your friends wouldn't accept.

You guys shld check it out! This is is the lyrics! Enjoy!

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
and the flashback starts
I’m standing there
On a balcony of summer air

See the lights,
See the party, the ball gowns
See you make your way through the crowd
and say hello
Little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
and my daddy said stay away from Juliet
and I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I’ll be waiting all there’s left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I’ll be the princess
It’s a love story, baby, just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while
Cause you were Romeo I was a scarlet letter
and my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I’ll be waiting all there’s left to do is run
You’ll be the prince and I’ll be the princess
It’s a love story, baby, just say yes

Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it’s real
Don’t be afraid
We’ll make it out of this mess
It’s a love story, baby, just say yes

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

Romeo save me I’ve been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

Marry me Juliet, you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that’s all I really know
I talked to your dad, you'll pick a white dress
It’s a love story, baby, just say yes
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
We were both young when I first saw you

Larry visits the zoo!

2008-09-14T20:45:00.001+08:00

Today went to visit the zoo with Justin & Bunny !
It was a day full of fun fun fun and more fun!

I did not know the zoo had changed so much! And going there was indeed a refresh of great memories i had when i was young with my parents and family!

I uploaded the photos in fb! So feel free to browse! Cheers!

http://www.new.facebook.com/editphoto.php?aid=57527&#/album.php?aid=57527&id=652604273

zixuan bdae + 223 gathering

2008-09-07T00:30:00.002+08:00

Today was a fun filled day for me

Firstly, i woke up late (Thanks to ex-boss's offer of beer the night before). And i felt quite bad to had let zuwei wait for me! ! ! haha. Thereafter we went to supermarket to buy stuff for zi xuan's bdae!

We went on to do the cooking & it was a great gathering. We baked cake for zi xuan and we had fun talking and chit chatting! Zixuan, hope u like our special cake! hahaaa

In the noon, went to meet up 223 classmates. It's good to see them again, Especially to see weiming, lucien, vim, charmayne, jia yi, jinhao, bryan... It was great ! Bryan had slimmed down so much! We went to eat at this jap curry restaurant near raffles city. It was not bad, the jap curry looks gd. Later on, went ben and jerry's to hv our ice cream.

It's gd to know that we frens still meet up & We still rmb our gd old jc days!

looking forward to more of such gatherings :)

anw, happy weekends everyone! :D

RSAF Open House Aftermath

2008-09-01T14:22:00.003+08:00

Oh my goodness! This year's RSAF Open House was superb! I think its the best experience i had as of today in the air force. The planes are cool and the goodies are good! everything is just so wow !

Let's talk abt some happy stuff in open house. my few wishes really came true! I took picture with detachment commander to the gulf LTC ZAKIR! He's the pilot of my favourite aircraft KC-135! The last time at CHangi Air Base I did not dare to talk to him cos he looked so serious during the talk! And i was like "shit, why didn't i ask for his signature!" and this time round, I did not wanna miss any chance! took picture with him and chatted with him for awhile! That is like so damn cool! Finally a chance to interact with my idol !

and the last day was the BEST! saw maj andy's children and his wife. Also, sat on F50. It was cool.

Most impt thing of all was Neville joel and myself took picture with CHIEF OF AIR FORCE ! ! ! That was like the most wonderful thing ever ! we chatted with him for a minute or so, and we even exchanged hand shakes. He is like the nicest chief ever ! So cardinal !

Last but not least, the wish of going events with Malcolm, Joel kinda came true! followed the AFN guys ard and its kinda fun. Its not bad to be able to attend and be involved in such events once in awhile !

in fact, i think this whole open house was a great experience for myself and this had made me luv the RSAF even more!

i am proud to be in the air force and this is something I think i am gonna miss when i ORD . ..

Again, happy birthday RSAF and congrats on 40 years of sucess!

WE ARE THE WNID!

Picture with Chief of the Republic of Singapore Air Force

*More pictures in my facebook profile @ http://www.new.facebook.com/profile.php?id=652604273 *

RSAF Open House

2008-08-26T21:22:00.002+08:00

I am so happy! RSAF Open House is upcoming!

Sat on Chinook, had fun during the media brief, i am really loving my job more and more!
Although stressful at times, but I must say every minute in AFIMC to me, is a experience that I enjoy! and i think i will miss the people I had worked with when i ORD :(

been so happy these few days, so excited over so many things! My year end long trip, air force open house, fren's outings, fren's birthdays! Gosh! Life is so happy !

We shld all look on the bright side. Unhappy things, why not just let bygones be bygones? :)
dun bear grudges *esp you, if u noe who i am refering to! haha*

Failure ?

2008-08-17T08:45:00.003+08:00

Lead a successful life. This is what I aim for in life. But what is the definition of successful?

In life, we are often faced with ups and downs. Lately, although I am happy in most aspects of my life, but yesterday, i suddenly feel i am a failure. I could not even know what my sister is undergoing, I could not even advise her. And what's more, I do not know how to communicate or even let her listen to me. It's like so difficuilt to teach a young teenager these days.

I am behaving more and more like an adult. I worry the kind of friends she made, I worry she will mix with the wrong company. Cos of this, I start to always find out where she is, when she is back. Suddenly I realised, this is what my parents did to me when i was younger. I get worried when she is home too late, worried that she did not study enough.

Suddenly I realised, actually being a brother / gd parent is really not easy. You try to care for them, but they feel that you are very irritating and intruding their private life. That was how i felt when i was a teenager too.

Sometimes, being responsible is not good too. I am quite tired honestly. I do not know what to do.

I had this v wierd wish these few days, and that is to erase clean all my memory. Just feel like knocking down by a car, or just knock in the head by a robber. Forget everything.

Very crazy in deed. But I know this is not a solution. It is just escaping reality.

Till the day she learn....... I guess I just got to be the BAD person in her eyes. Some day she will understand my intentions....

sister, we all luv u ok? pls grow up.

unhappy

2008-08-13T23:05:00.002+08:00

To be honest, I am very very very upset and unhappy today.

I had not written my blog to complain in ages. but today, i am really feeling very upset.

Are humans born to be selfish? I realised no matter how much i am there for my friends, when i need them, need their advice, they may not be there for you. This lead me to wonder, is yourself the only one whom you can trust and depend on?

Today's conv with someone kinda gave me a wake up call. This is reality lor. Humans are all like that. I am selfish, you are selfish. Everyone is selfish. So I really start to wonder, where does being MR NICE bring you to?

But i still live up to my rationale of being nice to everyone I meet, because, life is short. no point bearing grudges. I really do not know how to face them anymore. Mayb what Choon Hong once said is right, best friends or gd frens shld nv work together. it willl just make the two person's relationship become worse.

I learnt this valuable lesson today.

Maybe sometimes, its better to just focus on work and nothing else.

I am disappointed I must say honestly.

*Say I am seeking attention or trying to gain sympathy. I dun fucking care. I just wanna voice out how I feel. If you dun like it, just FUCK OFF. I will just FUCK CARE.

China Olympics 2008

2008-08-08T23:16:00.003+08:00

to be honest, I do hv doubts abt china hosting the olympics initially. But after the opening ceremony today, I cannot deny but to praise china. I think they did a great job and did surprised me by their superb opening ceremony !

During the ceremony, really feel so proud being a chinese ! and when seeing singapore team coming in and hong kong team marching in, really feel so happy! I think China did a great job in the olympics opening ceremony!

Congrats China, you proved to everyone that YOU ARE READY! :D

2008-07-28T22:10:00.002+08:00

"Some people want it all, but I don't want nothing at all
If it ani't you baby, If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything
but everything means nothing if I ain't got you..."

Who is this "you". Many people may link to my personal love life and say my partner or some lover of mine... But this person is my father AND mother.

I love them so much! if I don't have them ard with me, i dun think i can be who i am today. I love you dady mummy & of cos not forgetting my sister too!

i luv my family! :)

Kang - Updated as requested! :P

and dun feel so sad animore k? :) just move on with life dun look back ba. :D

2008-06-14T00:36:00.001+08:00

Treasure everyone around you.
Dun regret only when they're gone.

My condolences to those who had recently lost their loved ones.
Be it in NS, or through aging, or accidents.

Love them.
while you still can...

2008-06-09T22:08:00.002+08:00

today at work as usual.

sth happened at the end of work.

but suddenly realised how blessed i am, to hv such a gd mdm, who is willing to make us learn.

Also, after today, i also realised, how small actions one do may show one's maturity and thinking.
I did not know, actually all these while (Esp after i entered NS) I've entered the mature thinking zone. I am matured now, with an adult thinking.

I guess I am grown up. No longer the childish Larry le.

I guess i've entered the nxt phase of life.....

Let's leave the past behind and move forward. I am moving forward...
Next stop?

My grandpa passed away

2008-05-26T23:41:00.002+08:00

3.30 pm.

This marks another chapter in my life. That was the death time of my grandfather.

My grandfather (My father's father) and I, we were not that close honestly to speak. But, there is just this bond, everytime I see him, I still feel for him. I can feel the love he has for all of us, the "trying to act cool, bt deep in him, we can see he cares for us alot" look will always be in my memory.

He do not know how to express his love for his children and grandchildren. He hardly likes to do the talking, but everytime we go to visit him, he will always buy lotsa of gd food to wait for us to go there and eat. This is something I will never forget.

I still remember every year I go back to Hong Kong, having lunch at his place, He will always buy my favourite Char Siew & Roast pork to "welcome" me back. Not forgetting the dumplings that he made for us to eat during DUAN WU JIE.

As I am typing this, I start to realised how I used to take my grandpa's presence for granted. I am too blessed with every grandparent by my side since I was young. Till today, when I finally heard the news of my grandpa passing away, I realised, how life is full of changes.

I saw him in May earlier this yr. And today, 26 May (my sister's bdae) he passed away. I somehow felt relieved that I took tiem to visit him earlier this mth, but at the same time, rather regret I was not there to catch the last sight of him.

Life has to go on, and my show must carry on.

I am really thankful for all the SMSes & Concerns for me over the net. Dear friends, these things meant alot alot to me. I thank you all for that.

I willl move on with life, afterall death is something we all must learn to face in life.

To those out there whose grandparents are still alive. Take my advice, Treasure them. In fact not only grandparents, everyone that you love and who loves you, please do treasure them. Because some day, they may just be gone & no preview will be provided for you to make preparation.

Treasure your loved ones and Live life....

Grandpa, I love you. and RIP in heaven. I know u will be happy. definitely....

PS: Do not worry abt grandma, we will take gd care of her. You hv a pleasant journey to heaven. God Bless

2008-05-24T10:45:00.002+08:00

Another weekend is coming along.

recieved Tata's msg saying no time to meet me yesterday and she goin aussie today.
aww... wish her bon voyage and yea just wanna say Bae will miss u! hahaa... and When you are back PLEASE must meet up k? hahaa! if not bae will heartbroken! :P

and today going to bowl with bunni and tit. den going over to mel's house for dinner! =)
Sld i bring mushi along? haha. still thiniking .. . erm... =X haha!

yeah, its weekends again! so everyone enjoy ur weekends!

2008-05-19T22:11:00.002+08:00

Hi frens, pls help the china earthquake victims ! visit : http://info.msn.com.cn/caihong/rainbow.html for more details

it wun take you alot of time.

Lately, cyclone in Mynmmar, Tornadoes in US and Earthquake in China had killed many innocent lives. I hope the victims can overcome this difficuilt time soon. and may god bless them.

Sending my deepest regards to those people in rescue team in China.

and grieving for those who had lost their family members in this horrible disaster. May every victim pick themselves up soon.

2008-05-18T12:51:00.002+08:00

Cousin & gf came to singapore yesterday! had fun bringing them around Singapore. they are like one pair of sweet lovey dovey couple! felt so happy for them! Ate and walked ard! loving it :)

some stuff from my diary . . .

9.5 months had passed since we both agreed to part.

I still somehow miss you. I still somehow care for you. despite knowing that you already got someone else beside you then, why do I still care if you are happy, why do I still care if the person is treating you well?

Today, you and that someone parted. You feel lost. again, why do I still care if you are feeling alright? Why do I still care so much for you? You are not someone that great, I could have found someone better. But why do I still think of you late at night?

Months ago, i though I've gotten over everything. Not until I've heard from you once again.
Moving on, who doesn't want to? If I can, i woule love to move on too.

You said you're confused. You said to give you some time.
Why until today I still bother abt all these lines? Does it really matter to me already?

My friends said I am silly, My friends said I am dumb.
But maybe this is what love is all about.

Just want you to know, no matter what happens. i will always be by yourside.
be it your friend or someone else. I hope you will find yourself back soon.

Always be there for you,
Larry

love love love AGAIN!

2008-04-27T21:58:00.002+08:00

recently, alot of my close friends are complicated by love matters. they come seek my advice.
Suddenly, I realise, I myself already no longer know how to advice others. Because I myself is also pretty immune to relationships.

Suddenly, just feel that relationships are really pretty hurtful. But why people still wans it? for me, i guess I still need some more time to find out this answer myself.

Why people just cannot forget certain things> Why people dun bare to leave something?
I wonder why ...

can someone ans me?

Liberated

2008-04-16T21:14:00.001+08:00

Liberated . . .

No more M n M's . . .

drank the Green Tea . . .

feels great ~

Let's keep these things in the memory . . .
Let bygones be bygones.

A Bright future awaits . . .

2008-04-13T15:14:00.002+08:00

I do not know why, but i love snow.

the season, the colour, the feel. It seems to be my favourite. Lately, I feel quite blank. as in, I do not know what I am doing. I am so looking forward to university. I am trying to work hard and do my best in whatever I do.

Time is a very scary thing. Do U Know?

2008-04-06T00:50:00.002+08:00

Finally passed my basic theory test. now i can start learning driving (As in, touch a car wohoo~) haha! Anyway, after Basic Theory test, went to bugis to attend Malcolm's photo exhibition. Nice photos indeed. Also present was Ms Amanda, Maj Cindy, Joel & Qihao XD

totally look unglam tad day (No dress sense. Disgusting hairsytle. No class) hahaaa ! But never mind. Had fun eating dessert with Mdm & the rest. Its really sad to know she is leaving. she is the best Officer i've met thus far. Fair & Square, and never fail to care for soldier. Honestly, will miss her alot after she leave. Not long before she leaves man ! Must treasure the days we had with her.

Anyway that was yesterday. Let's talk abit of today shall we? Initially planned to go to settler;s cafe @ Katong, but din noe it had CLOSED DOWN! (Not close bt CLOSED DOWN) hahaa! TURNED OUt to be really disappoitned. but well, nvm! in the end, we went MEL's house! hahaa! TOTALLY FUN! Made the Meat volcano (Which turned out to be MARS? Or ALIEN ANUS/ASSHOLE? Hahaa!) But miracaly delicious & DELIGHTFUL. =P

also learnt BRIDGE (& got relli hooked on it) hahaa ! and played several other board games.

Hoenstly, really luv the compay of frens. Enjoying the moment now and slowly discovering myself, and also, returning back to normal. Look forward to the future, Larry !

Really wish to go to Houston or London! hahaa....
(If i hv the $$$) =X (Sian halfz)

LARRY IN HOUSTON ! ! ! ! (When will it happen?)
earn more cash ! ! ! !

2008-03-19T18:22:00.002+08:00

diary is a sweet and bitter thing

looking back . . . thinking back . . . now thinking present . . .

Suddenly came to realise... Life is like a dream . . .

Larry, Do u know where you're going to?

2008-03-13T20:23:00.002+08:00

It's been really long since I've last shared my feelings online. But i really need to express this feeling here. cos i really don't think I can find anything to vent this emotion out.

Have I grown up? Things around me have changed so much all of a sudden? I suddenly feel so lost in this constraint space. Well, life just moved on. and i somehow no longer know what I am doing anymore. I am just going with the flow.

Sometimes, people tend to think too much. I really choose not to think itoo much. but sometimes, it just can't be helped. I don't know if what i've been doing make sense. But I guess I shall just go with the flow. Don't u think so?

Let the past be the past, and let's move on. You've moved on, He had moved on, she had moved on, everyone had moved on. So, let's just move on with life.

My true belief as always : Tomorrow will always be a better day

Smile Larry. . .

2008-02-10T23:12:00.000+08:00

happy birthday larry. 20 yrs old le. grow up k? :D keke!

2008-01-28T21:08:00.000+08:00

Lately I just find no reason in blogging anymore

I just feel tad my life is so the same.
and I am getting lazy. Mayb i'm getting old!

hahaa! I will still blog if there is a need to, but i guess i'll be blogging less.
this blogs seems quite dead anw. :P

well, tads all i wanna say i guess??? haha!

stay happy everyone!
and may we meet again in blogspot! :P

everlasting?

2008-01-26T12:38:00.000+08:00

Today is a beautiful sunday. So i've decided to blog again after so long! :)

Well, i start to ponder the concept of everlasting.
Actually in life, nothing is everlasting.

Let's see this concept from several angles. In nature, everyone will die one day, thus, Life itself is never EVERLASTING.

secondly, let's look in terms of relationship. I always believed that true luv exist, but for it to be EVERLASTING its quite tough. people change every now and den. couples mayb damn sweet before they get married, but after marriage, feelings will change, and it is impossible for someone to stay faithful to u for life. at least this is what I discovered after so many years of living on Earth.

I always feel tad we should all live a fruitful life. whether or not something is everlasting is not important, the most important thing is that we live the best out of it, and when things come to an end, we will have no regrets.

Playing mahjong later with CH, QH and Kang.

hehee! a great sunday so far (although with lots of packing and stuff)

but oh ya! not forgetting to promote abit for air force~! hahaa!

SINGAPORE AIRSHOW will commence from 19 to 24 Feb !
Please do show your support for the RSAF's black knights team!
more details are available at the singapore airshow 08 official website (pls go google to find the url. lazy check! haha)

2008

2008-01-20T23:03:00.000+08:00

My first post of 2008

Well, time really flies. it is 2008 already.
2008 will be better i hope . . .

and may all stay happy and cool !
and wishes all come true !

merry christmas

2007-12-25T06:58:00.000+08:00

hi all

merry christmas & a happy new year~

will be out of townt ill 6 jan. :)

all the best for the upcoming year ~and hva fantastic christmas~

*Blogging from airport

2007-12-20T10:01:00.000+08:00

Its been some time since I last blogged.

well just a quick update! i am fine, i am happy and i am enjoying what i am doing now! :)

Merry christmas in advance everyone out there! and i miss u all! :D

been really busy lately, so catch up with u guys soon yeah? TC! BYE!

2007-11-25T22:23:00.000+08:00

我们都是在心中还都留有同样伤痕的时候
自己背负着这些头也不回，背对着背的静静走了

我曾经是那么的相信自己已经找到了永远都不会变的东西
可我却感觉我们两个都各自改变着，离那不变还有着的一步之遥
我们为了不让彼此受伤，依旧保持着的这么一步的距离

多想对你说声“谢谢”
但这句“谢谢”还是没有说出口
因为感觉那就像是永远的再见那样太过于悲伤
如果有一天，我能转世重生的话
我也会依然踏上去找寻你的路途的吧

那一天在不经意间自己选择的新风景
对它有些许的迷茫的时候
却感到有一阵仿佛像你一样温柔的风从我脸庞吹过
多想把这句“爱你”告诉你
可最后还是没能说出口
但你知道吗？这是我这一生最大的谎言，却也是最真的想法
如果有一天，上天给我再活一次的机会的话
我也会依然踏上去找寻你的路途的吧

多想对你说声“谢谢”
但还是没有说出口
因为感觉那就像是永远的别离一样太过于悲伤了
多想把这句“爱你”告诉你
却还是没能说出口
但你知道吗？那是我这一生最大的谎言，却也是最真的想法
即使来世我生为他人
我也会依然踏上去找寻你的路途

2007-11-21T20:10:00.000+08:00

It has been a long time since I've last posted.

Been really busy lately with my NS, as well as my other commitments.

Been thinking alot lately about alot of stuff. I do not know what am I doing at times too. My mind is confused and behind my smile and happiness, there is just this shadow of unhappiness that I do not know why I could not chase away.

No matter how many Kilometers I run, no matter how long I sleep, no matter how i distract myself, i just cannot seem to chase this inch of uhappiness away. Maybe this uhappiness is rooted deep in everyone's heart. But this uhappiness is just more difficuilt to control in my heart.

I really see no reason in making myself unhappy, but i do not know why it just can't be helped for my case.

Maybe like what Aunt Anne said, I should really go to the chruch and pray.

I hope I can calm my mind, and free my mind from all sort of distractions.

Where are you, Larry?

disgusting military police

2007-10-29T18:53:00.000+08:00

All right. Today I encountered an really unpleasent experience. Today when i returned from the medical centre back to my workplace, a Military police AKA MP was rude!

Initially, i just go through the detector with my medcine and umbrella, because what was in the plastic bag was just medcine, i find it totally unnecessary to put through the scanner. But later on, he said in quite a harsh tone, "hello? Can you please put everything in the scanner?"

I said ok, so i put all my medcine in the scanner, but went through the detector with my umbrella. Cos i tot it was totally unnecessary to put umbrella through. But then later, he kinda raised his voice at me again. and said " I said everything right??"

at that moment, i was abit annoyed, because i feel that he need not shout at me like that, at least he could have said in a more courteous tone. And as I collected back my stuff, he shot me with one statement " you dun understand english isit? I said put everything inside right?"

now that is really really rude. I find that totally unnecessary. Why must he be so rude as to kinda be sacarstic? He is a human, I am a human I dun see why must he use such rudeness to hurt someone. If he wanna frustrate on someone, i dun think he should frustrate on me. If I were a Major or an officer, I wonder if he would still use such statements on me? I may be a LCP and he is a CPL, but does that mean that I deserve no basic human respect that every human deserve?

I always believe in basic respect. and to that CPL, if you happen to see this msg, I hope you can at least learn some basic manners and do not go around shooting people with such sacarstic statements! That last statement was totally uncalled for.

It's disappointing a service excellence ministry MINDEF has such a rude MP. Hope he wun go around offending more people and portraying such a bad images of MPs working in the ministry.

Sammi Concert 2007

2007-10-14T10:59:00.001+08:00

Wow! yesterday was really a fun night for us! My sis and i went for SAMMI CHENG SHOW MI SINGAPORE CONCERT 2007 wow! HAHA. it was really exciting as its the FIRST TIME EVER! to see Sammi LIVE in singapore. It was really cool. but before we go in, of cos we wld wish to camwhore abit first eh? :P

Me & My Sis (Haiz, my hair & eyebag... =( haha! )

concert Ticket

One thing we were shocked was that it was only 6.30 pm, bt there are already some crazy fans out there waiting already! and the sad thing is that, we went early too, hoping they sold those souveniers that they sold in the HOng Kong Concert, but sadly, they didn't lor. only gt a silkpro free gift.. haha! so DOTS ...

Waiting to enter the statdium....

Concert hall waiting...
(Sucks to be the one holding the camera.. )

Ok. The whole stage layout was really cool. But compared to the Hong Kong one is really Nothing. STill prefer the Hong Kong Stage. But well, dun complain so much liao eh? :P

The SAMMI STAGE ...

All right. Then the show started at around 8.30 pm. Sammi started coming out with the same COSTUME outfit as the HOng Kong Concert. Damn cool! She started singing 唯独你是不可取替. Firstly, she sang the slow version of it...

and that was sammi with her cool "cleopatra" style outfit

den later on, she threw away her wig (Just like her vancouver concert, and went back stage to change) and she came out with a long hairstyle chio outfit ! Singing the faster version of 唯独你是不可取替. and some other song like 放不低, her new single 爱情万岁, before going backstage to change agian! haha. She was so cute, saying she was so worried abt us being 'too quiet' as she said while she was back stage, she realised we are too quiet, so unlike her fans in HK. That left her wondering.. "Are Singaproeans really that 'guai' ? hahaa!"

bt well, when she came out, we just went CRAZY! hahaa.. den she said she take back her words :P saying that we are damn high! haha.

Ok. den then after, she went on with the show with her oldie songs. Some i nv even hear before too ! haha. but its really nice. went really high when she sang the medley, which includes 小心女人, 表演时间， X派对, etc.

Managed to shot quite gd shots during this medley..

All right. den thereafter is the best part, which is personally one of my favourites. She changed into a pleasant night gown, and thereafter singing her classics like 默契, 如果你有事, etc. and one of her fav songs 红绿灯. She also told us to treasure our family members, and to always treasure those that we love, as we do not noe what will happen in the future. Such a caring diva!

Den after that, she started singing 遇见 . and STEF SUN came out! haha! her live was really good, and then after tad they chatted abt how they first met, etc. den started singing another song, 绿光 together. den later on sammi went backstage to sing, and stef sun sang another english song before she left stage. Some photos i took :D

After this segment is the MOST HIGH part. sammi started dancing and singing all the past hit Fast songs of hers like 非男飞女，独家试唱，插科，神奇女侠，发热发亮，荧光粉红， etc. And made everyone damn high ! i was one of them. high until started dancing and jumping, until one auntie in front keep staring at me , and YES its AUNTIE! hahaa.. sammi's fans are of all age groups eh? hahaa! Really damn high! below are some pictures of those segment

ok after the dance segment, sammi changed into a white suit and came out singing 感情线, and started shaking hands with her fans. But the bad thing is that everyone all squeeze to the front, and the stage not say very big also, so i tried goign front, but after seeing the crowd, i give up. i couldn't even squeeze in!

But i am smart, i got binoculars! haha. so can see her erally really clearly from my seat! and that is enough! hahaa... below are some of her pics. I tried goign front to take some close shots of her, but really too many people, and those security extras just keep pushing us back, saying to ask us to return to our seats. but Sammi keeps waving to us, and keep letting us take pictures. WHY SECURITY SO EXTRAS???!?!! but whatever the case, managed to take some close shots of her, but its just abit blur -_- nvm la! can see her with my bare eyes den its enough! hahaa.

Ok. den after tad she invited MC Hot Dog from LMF all the way from Hong Knog to sing the song 爱是.. With her. Its special, because she nv sing tad in Hong Kong.

And after that, she also sang her chinese song, 出界 with us singing along with her. she was very happy! and later on, she invited her fans on stage to sing with her. She chose 2 fat but cute gal. and she keeps making fun of them being fat, and saying that she chose them so she could look thinner! But it was so funny! and she hug her fans, she take photos with them! She is the best diva man!!! And to the 2nd fat gal who went on stage, just wanna say your "HELLO SINGAPORE" rocks! And i totally like it! If u happen to see this, jsut wanna say, YOU ROCK! :D

lastly, she ended the song with her 终身美丽. took some pictuers before she left stage. She said that she wanna thank all of us for supporting her, and explained to us that she has serious throat infection yesterday, bt she said we gave her stregth. and we are her source of energy.

Later on, although we kept shouting for ENCORE, she also did not appear on stage again. Its qutie sad, cos we tot she'll encore, but she didn't. Below shows that after the show, people still stay... hoping she'll come out. I'm one of them :P hahaa!

The concert lasted only about 2 hours. Unlike the HK one which lasted ard 3.5 hours! and the songs nt as much as teh Hong Kong concert too. that is abit sad. But overall, Sammi Cheng still surprises her fans with her humour and FANTASTIC stage performances. She is undoubtly still the DIVA of the music industry. SAMMI We'll KEEP LOVING YOU! Get well soon...

Also took afew short clips of the concet, upload and share if gt time yeah? :)
SAMMI CHENG ROCKS! hahaa.

after this concert, i really hv no choice, but say this.

Joey, Miriam, Kelly, sorry, but Sammi is wad i call diva. You all still hv a long long long way to go ...

2007-10-02T21:43:00.000+08:00

狂烈得疯癫的爱恋
如病魔一般可怕
我让它扩散
才自觉控制它越难
还是等医好这个沉痛疮疤
到复原一天
也应该回家

留医在你的臂内疗伤
治理这深刻的创伤
事实或是心窝脆弱
还是已经没救药

留恋在你的臂内疗伤
渡过今晚夜痛苦一场
来暂时将那故事寿命延长

拿药水好好把我医
如自欺都应一试
躺卧于於这里
逃避了那痛不止

知否已花光心血
心窝已枯萎每一分寸
请你暂借
这里或令我觉得温暖

留医在你的臂内疗伤
治理这深刻的创伤
事实或是心窝脆弱
还是已经没救药

留恋在你的臂内疗伤
渡过今晚夜痛苦一场
来暂时将那故事寿命延长

2007-10-01T23:08:00.000+08:00

那天不小心洗去你口讯
才有欲哭的冲动
认清生疏了的情人
再也无权令手机接通

我应该不记得为何你吸引
饶恕自己的不幸
但当我想到你的传闻
这双手竟再震

人都分开了
唯有亲手自己治疗
如发泄是生理需要
为何眼泪会缺少

如能为你哭
哭不出眼泪
失眠至少能睡
想起你如何不对
怎么我还要追

原来上次哭
哭不出眼泪
感情不进则退

感激我们成熟了
应知道流泪有罪
承受任何是非都能捱下去
我都想假装只得一岁
为你当街的出走也说得过去

这一刻不小心想到你的吻
难过地安守本份
为一个不爱我的坏人
我早得到教训

人都分开了
唯有亲手自己治疗
如发泄是生理需要
为何眼泪会缺少

如能为你哭
哭不出眼泪
失眠至少能睡
想起你如何不对
怎么我还要追

原来上次哭
哭不出眼泪
感情不进则退

感激我们成熟了
应知道流泪有罪
承受任何是非都能捱下去
我都想假装只得一岁
为你当街的出走也说得过去

free from you to love again and again!

2007-09-30T21:18:00.000+08:00

I was caught up in the moment of this solitude
Isolated, contemplated
Nothing left to feel

Somehow Somewhere along the way in this dejected state
I realise for myself that its all
Because of you

Swirling, swimming in confusion
Lurking in the darkness
Seraching for solutions
To be free from you

The time will come and I know i'll love again
a little something better will come my way
I know it sad when love turns its back on you
No one else could ever treasure me teh way I do

All said and done I hit the ground
Delusions far away
Redress my soul and take control
Farewell to this charade

Moving on this winding road
where the curves are blind
The future's bright
My hopes are strong
Don't wanna hesitate

Cruising, Building my defences
I have found the answers
No more taking chancces
Now i'm free from you

The time has come and I know I'll love again
A little something better will come my way
I guess its sad when love turns its back on you
No one else could ever treasure me the way I do

You have no clue
All the tears yo've caused
Pain and sorrow
Can't take anymore

The time has come and I know I'll love again
A little something better will come my way
I guess its sad when love turns its back on you
No one else could ever treasure me the way I do
Someone else will love me more than the way you do

2007-09-24T20:43:00.000+08:00

Phew.. WOrk is getting harder day after day. It seems that the more you get the hang of sth, the more you'll be taksed to do certain things. This is so OMG!!! really feel quite stressed out, but well, take things slowly one step at a time should we? :P

thank god i have my nodame to help destress me and my NO LIFE FRIENDS in office to help me desterss too ! thanks guy! :)

i miss the bitching days with my gang of choir buddies, i miss those crapping and dirty jokes with my sec sch frens.. i miss those gossiping and diva days with jannah and my castor friends... i miss everything i do in school... miss my e7 friends.. miss zw and gang.. miss everything and everyone :(

when can i go uni?????